Sheri McConnell

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2007-04-04T17:22:00.000-07:00

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Thanks .sheri.

Amazing Grace ...

2007-03-22T10:05:00.000-07:00

oh how sweet the .... (sound) SIGHT. just a little spin off on the old hymn.

I went and saw the movie "Amazing Grace" www.amazinggracemovie.com monday afternoon. For those of you who know me, one of my favorite things to do is hit up an afternoon matinee solo like. I find it a way to disconnect from the day to day stuff. Of course depending on what movie I actually see determines the ways I actually really do disconnect but, I most definately have an ability to get thoroughly engrossed in a fantastic story plot and stellar acting! Then again I also (at times) just love to go to fluff movies for the sake of a good laugh - comedic silliness value.

Well, in between trying to run a few errands (ive been cooped up in my house all last week pretty much - cause of this sickness that doesn't want to depart). I found myself in a local mall in Burbank - walking by the theatre and landed up right on time to check out the listings. I actually hesitated initially thinking I would rather hit up a brainless flick ... and honestly, most "christian" movies have elements of less than professional - low grade art. I find myself cringing through parts and thinking, now again I can see why we get mocked for our attempts at creativity. So, needless to say - I was somewhat wondering if this would be a waste of $8. In a last ditch decision (pretty much all the other movies had started) I thought what the heck "go for it". I grabbed a bit of popcorn and bottled water and found myself right in the middle of a smattering of people.

I really enjoy 'period pieces' not just for a story line but, the scenery and in a sense romantisized sense of adventure I very easily fall into. 'Pride and Prejudice' for example is a classic example for me in this.

The story begins. It is about a passionate young man named William Wilberforce, a British Abolitionist who burns with conviction for justice ... finds himself in increased influence within the british parliament yet, very simply and so profound to me early on in his life in his pursuit of justice towards the abolition of the slave trade wrestles with it best pursued through a single minded devotion to a calling of faith and ministry or political activeness? He loved nature, he loved animals ... he reminded me of my studys of St. Francis and the simplicity of life. He lived above (not in piety) the pulls of every day society - He was consumed and burning with passion for his mission. That was his sole focus. So much so, his friends had to help turn his face towards the possibility of marriage (which he really had no time for) but, eventually found a truly suitable "partner" in every way towards the cause of justice. From what I saw portrayed, a formidable force in that day.

Through a series of events he decides to walk his influence out with the political systems of the day and never lose sight of his love of the divine -true faith. So beautiful. He battled physical weakness ...tiredness...a long history of sickness yet, this did not hold him back. He was able to enjoy the blessing of a family and finally did win in his fight towards the abolition of slavery. He then went on to fight for many other causes right until his death.

This story so gripped me! Purely from an artistic eye - it was beautiful and done with excellency. No cheesy film quality here. Even the journey of the creation of this great old hymn was so fascinating!! The life of Albert Finney (creator of this hymn) is also portrayed in this movie with incredible 'grace' and honesty.

This historical story is so inspiring - I highly recommend worth seeing to all!

"Amazing Grace how sweet the sound who saved a wretch like me. I once was lost but, now am found. Was blind but, now I see." -Albert Finney

ENCOUNTER

2007-03-12T20:01:00.000-07:00

I came home from Canada late last wednesday night. and right off the top have to say - my trip was flippin' phenomenal! In some ways it went way too fast and I wish that I was still there. and then of course in other ways, it is good to be home. I really miss Bailey (my lil' bichon) when Im away and in my travels have picked up some nasty virus. Im so sick right now ...hackhack...iiiiccckkkk....head...nose....throat.

I was invited to speak at the annual Senior High Wknd. hosted by Full Gospel Bible College in good ole' gopher worshipping Eston, SK. Believe it or not ...these are my old stomping grounds. Eston and I go waaaay back. I graduated from this College and have such a love for many friends who I find in those hallways to this day.

Senior High Wknd. is the College's recruitment wknd. and I have to say they do a F I N E job in making it a fantastic time for all! Good job all you out there!! Needless, to say I found myself with a mixture of excitement and yet nervousness all in one. I think the anticipation of seeing many people who I respect, like and some love dearly. A coming together of a variety of worlds for me-that is for sure! There were about 250 senior highers, 100+ college students, faculty, youth leaders/pastors ....etc. What a party!

So many laughs and crazy honest conversation with loved friends and peers. [love it] a reconnecting of souls in some senses. and then i made a few new friends - who i really believe are a beautiful gift from the Father. I love these kind of "Jesus connects". It felt good to be "home" in a way ...where it feels safe to just BE ME. Often times I think that we don't even realize that until we find ourself back in the midst of it.

From a Kingdom ministry perspective. OFF THE FREAKIN' CHARTS! seriously. I've only been hearing great reports back! 15-20 students made first time decisions to follow Jesus. Many many youth were getting stuff sorted, getting things right with Jesus and with others. Vision was being stirred. Healing was happening, deliverance was being encountered. all in all the KINGDOM OF GOD was BREAKING IN! Even now I am hearing stories of how students are fasting and seeking the Lord from the wknd. to find practical ways to discover mercy, pursue compassion and the justice of God in their spheres of influence. To discover their poor. Three nights in a row many of us were up to the wee hours of the morning just 'doin the stuff'. so good. soo good.

Thank you Jesus for showing up and makin it so real cause YOU ARE REAL!

I was speaking with one of my best friends today [teresa trask] and she articulated something to me which really stuck. She said "Sher, it sounds like the Lord was creating space for you to just BE YOU". It really struck me. Yes! Father ...THANKYOU. a precious gift just for my heart and much needed i might add.

I am sure that I could say so much more. But, I will leave it as this.

Those of you who read this and were there ... know that our time together were sovereign moments in time and that it is only the beginnings of so much more Kingdom.
Keep firing out the communicato -don't be strangers.
Let's hold together for those things we know are true and real.
Go and discover YOUR TRIBE. Ones you will give your life for to pursue faith, freedom and hope. Not just for yourselves -but for OTHERS!

Kingdom Encounter for Kingdom Discovery.
A path of true adventure!!

Leavin on a jet plane ...

2007-02-24T21:47:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow morning I am heading out of LAX to Calgary, Alberta CANADA. YES.....the great white north here I come. A little nervous about the weather dynamic as I seem to be getting soft when it comes to this wonderful so cal winter sun and warmth.

Overnighting in Calgary and then off to Saskatoon on Monday where I will be picked up by a couple of friends from the Full Gospel College in Eston, SK. and I will spend the next week there at the College ...hanging...preparing...more hanging... and then from March 1-4th a few hundred High School Students along with the hundred or so college students will be gathering for the annual senior high wknd. which I am the main speaker for. I am excited and yet apprehensive all at the same time. Funny that no matter how many times I speak in front of people I very much feel like Moses .... Lord, I cannot do this... what do I really have to say? So, I appreciate your prayers as I long to hear and obey Him as we come together to really encounter the one -true - living Jesus who I believe will bring freedom to many and breath vision ...life into.

I then will be concluding my trip in Calgary with some of my family and close friends. Returning back to the land of palm trees and surf by March 7th.

Looking forward to this trip and how the Lord is going to surprise. I pray that HE will work through the impossible!!!!

Blessings to you all

off to bed - sherix

I Think ...

2007-01-19T08:33:00.000-08:00

often times we are freeze framed into living our lives through perceptions rather than true reality. Many reasons for this im sure. Escapism by far is one of the most popular responses perhaps because our current reality is something we do not like, are fearful of, not in touch with or wishing was different.

I remember when I was a little girl I always approached people and friendships thinking that everyone liked me! I mean seriously how could anyone not like me or find it difficult to like me? I viewed myself through my little self focused lense how I hoped people would see me not even thinking that perhaps there was a differing reality. It was just a given ... that when I faced life head on I would become friends with all and everyone. Of course as one grows up you slowly realize that often times our slowly krept in differences and values seem to divide us rather than unite us. Wow ...one can sure see that reality play out in many facets of life! To this day that still makes me sad.

Many people in my life look at me as always strong, confident, bold and fearless. That is a perception and a partially true reality yet, in my heart I see and feel the very near reality of my fears ...timid heart...and desperate longings. I want to be able to face those things head on and not live in some disconnected land yet, I also realize more and more that in many ways im still that little girl filled with idealism and hope - even when all seems crushed bringing disappointment and heartache, I try and brush myself off and then move forward - perhaps a little more cautiously, hopefully not filled with disillusionment (let's face it many times have to fight that one off) -I choose to move forward.

I think that we can learn much by reflecting on our childhoods and how we were as little boys and girls cause in many ways this is the truest form and nature of our personality and life before the broken ways of humanity and opinion begin to influence us.

Even as I watched my twin 5 year old nephews play and interact this last week it caused me to reflect on some of my own personal childhood memories, contributing to who I am today in strength and all my weakness. I long to live life to the full, perhaps in some way I pray that I could regain some childhood innocence, freedom and simple faith. To believe in the goodness of life ... and belief in the human soul to find those places that are lifegiving.

What are those things that bring you life? May we be men and women who can face our personal reality ...push past the perceptions to really SEE HEAR FEEL allowing the life giving reality and grace of Jesus to touch all those places, even through the difficulties find triumph, strength, truth and wisdom!

**I just read the story today "The Velveteen Rabbit" for the first time. How timely and what a beautiful story -fitting for this post! Here is a quote and link to the complete story:

"What is REAL?" asked the Rabbit one day, when they were lying side by side near the nursery fender, before Nana came to tidy the room. "Does it mean having things that buzz inside you and a stick-out handle?"

"Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. "It's a thing that happens to you. When a child loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with, but REALLY loves you, then you become Real."

"Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit.

"Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful. "When you are Real you don't mind being hurt."

"Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked, "or bit by bit?"

"It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse. "You become. It takes a long time. That's why it doesn't happen often to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."

http://digital.library.upenn.edu/women/williams/rabbit/rabbit.html

Christmas Letter 2006

2006-12-18T18:30:00.000-08:00

CHRISTMAS 2006
What a wonderful time of year we find ourselves in again! A time to celebrate and
reflect on the memories and moments of another year soon to be passed.
The central meaning of Christmas
to behold the narrative of a child’s birth
Who in frail humanity yet completely divine was sent as our Savior to bring hope and life
Today HE – JESUS - reigns as Lord and King!

This story whether we believe in it or not, impacts our world through the diversity of culture, families and individual narratives in a beautiful way.
This is Christmas

My prayer for you is that His Love, Kindness, Mercy, Compassion, Peace and Joy would rest in your family in a generous way this season spilling into all that you do and, more importantly, resonating in all who you are!

2006 for me has been a year of change, continued personal growth, deep challenge and excitement! As you know, in September of 2005, transition once again was on my doorstep and in the desire to respond in obedience, the call was to move to Los Angeles, California. The reason for this move was to join my good friends David and Anita Ruis in pioneering a community of faith called ‘Basileia’ (Bas-i-lay-ah) Simply stated, we are “devoted to Kingdom Living -engaged with culture and justice”. My home base in Calgary, AB. Canada sent me as a cultural missionary and have been standing with me in friendship, prayer and financial backing. I could not be here today without my Canadian home community, my family and very dear friends! With a 3yr. religious worker visa in hand, most everything sold, Bailey (my lil’ Bichon Frise dog) and I headed south.

I have to say that after the initial 2-3 month ‘honeymoon’ period of driving down one of the many LA freeways and admiring palm trees (one of my favorite things here) and of course the incredible weather wore off, the culture shock of the mass population index, freeway rage, isolated insulated living of this very independent, flamboyant and veneer ridden culture began to set in. Paradoxically, LA is a beautifully lonely place.

These observations created the question which I still ask to this day
How does one penetrate into this mission field and culture of LA? Lord, what are the creative ways?
Then again, perhaps a fantastic question we should all ask daily of our respective places as we live out community life.
…To live the life of Jesus.

Coupled with getting to know my little apartment community (there are 6 units in the complex I live in, here in Tujunga) and slowly in the inception, formation stages of Basileia’s community growth there have been many exciting pieces unfolding! As I have been establishing myself within our community and the greater LA Community (through avenues like Barry’s Bootcamp check it out www.barrysbootcamp.com) relationships are organically being birthed (we have approx. 150 people in a consistent way connected to us), also I have instigated a weekly meeting for young adults where friendships are being formed, and mentorship along their spiritual journey into mission, is slowly unfolding in unique day to day ways that the Lord speaks and moves. I am beginning to love this place I find myself in and appreciate the hidden gems in the midst. I do have to say that we have some very amazing people who now call Basileia home and many of these ones are becoming life long, cherished friends of mine. What a gift!

HIGHLIGHTS In May we were blessed with a loft space of 5500 sq. feet here in LA that we call Basileia’s living room. It came fully furnished with our signature creative vibe and just in time for our live recording project that I was a part of co-coordinating and working on with David Ruis -his band, and visual arts creative team. It was a huge success and we all really believe that it captured the sound and essence of what we are slowly creating and who we are slowly becoming. It is still in the production stages but, you can check out the bootleg version of it on youtube at: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lkqnP4By6eQ This project will be hitting the market in the New Year!

TRAVEL seems to be my middle name! In July I had the privilege of spending 3 weeks in various parts of Germany. The first 2 weeks were ministry focused as a small team consisting of David/Band and friends played (in more ways than one) and ministered in various events. Including Berlin Stadium where 60,000 plus attendees came to be a loud voice of worship. It was a beautiful picture of the unity of His body. The overall trip was incredible! My last week in Germany, a good friend and I, traveled to the very beautiful Heidelberg - a place one must behold!! Then to Bonn/Cologne area where I/we visited with my amazing European family. Fun times - fun times!

Part of August was spent back in Canada where I was preaching/teaching at ‘Street Invaders’ a youth discipleship missions program. This also gave me an incredible time of reconnecting with dear friends and family. Sadly, after months of declining health, on August 28th my grandma Sawchenko passed away to be with Jesus and grandpa. The matriarch of our family left a legacy of faith and strength in such beautiful ways. She is loved and missed.

The remainder of this fall I made a few more trips to various parts of Canada for teaching and training opportunities with many of my long standing friends in youth ministry and beyond. I always look forward to these invitations of investing wherever I can in the young of our generation – speaking out life, truth and freedom! Of course …There are more trips to come in 2007!!

YOUR SUPPORT is crucial to the ongoing work and life that I have put my hands to here in Los Angeles, and beyond. Thank you! As a North American cultural missionary, my entire income is all being raised through individuals like you, ministry honorariums and EPIC Ministries have been a champion in coming alongside and standing with me in this endeavor.

I cannot do this without your giving and lives of generosity. LA is a very expensive place to live, it is shocking, actually, and with the currency exchange I need to raise at least another $500-$750/mo. committed monthly support. Will you join my monthly support team?

If you are looking for a worthy cause, individual or charity to give – I would ask that you consider standing with me in this way. Please contact me directly, for all the details on how you can sign up as a part of my monthly support team. All gifts are tax deductible!

:: Prayer Points ::
+Health – physically, emotionally, spiritually and relationally
+The leadership of Basileia – for discernment and unity moving forward
+Protection – physically, relationally, with Bailey
+Relational Connections – growing connects and new relationships
+financial – both one time gifts and committed monthly support is appreciated!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

K-Town Here I Come!

2006-11-17T15:00:00.000-08:00

Well, for most of you who know me ... know that travelling seems to be my middle name "Sheri Travelling McConnell". hmmm....it has been a busy fall season of travel and this Monday I leave yet again for Kelowna, BC. Canada to spend a week with good friends!

Todd Rutkowski with the Vineyard Church in Kelowna has invited David (Ruis) and I to teach at the Vineyard Discipleship School and then also lead a roundtable discussion with approx. 30 leaders from Canada on the "Emerging Church". To hear what people are doing from their different locations, ideas, how can we support one another, etc.

I'm really looking forward to this time, being able to hang with peers who most of us have significant history with one another. See some old friends, perhaps reconnect in new ways. Im sure meet some new friends also. Im also anticipating some times where we can really "listen" to one another, the Lord and be able to encourage each other as we all have been journeying and creating our own story in our respective locations.

Would appreciate your prayers. Over the last couple days I have been fighting a cold of sorts so, I'm popping everything of a vitamin assortment into my system imaginable.

Also, my house has been in total dissarray for the last 10 days (due to a pipe that burst under the foundation in my living room -creating a whole lot of wet carpet). The leak is fixed, the carpet relaid and the final touches are being done as I speak. My home should be back to pretty much normal by tonight-here's hoping;)

I haven't slept well for quite a few days now ... processing lots of thoughts. Im sure this doesn't help with this virus which seems to be attacking my body. Am trying to prep for next week over these couple days -the current swirl is definately not helping.

Also, if you could pray for our time in Kelowna -the teaching we are doing and facilitating, the one on one times, hearing the Lord, etc. A real "sense" that this is significant for more than the obvious.

Thank you friends. Blessed.

sheri

New Pictures ...

2006-11-08T10:41:00.000-08:00

A heap of you have been asking me for new pictures ...so here are a few taken last weekend at my friend Maria's Birthday Party! Good times had by all:) Enjoy

Off to C A N A D A I go ...

2006-10-12T20:09:00.000-07:00

weeeeee.... Tomorrow I leave for the great red and white! Busy packing away tonight -you know how it goes. Also, wanted to let everyone know who reads this blog that I am slowly moving on over to myspace.

Yes, I have bowed to pop culture and the myspace takeover. Actually the thing that spurred me on was the fact that Blogger is changing their site and technical difficulties may ensue .... so, one will see.

Come on over a take a gander at my newly designed myspace site. Some of you might not like it as much -others will love it more ...oh well, can't please everyone.

Hope you are all well!! Appreciate your prayers as I am walking into 2 weeks of intense ministry, I will update either as I go along or when I come back to LA on Oct. 27th.

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Labels

2006-10-01T09:00:00.000-07:00

I used this piece from my journal in a teaching that I did at Basileia a couple weeks ago. Thought that I would share it with you.

LABELS

Why is it so easy to "label" people? To have determined expectations in ways which individuals will or will not fulfill in our life.

Our humanity and it’s limitations, busyness or survival instincts seem to easily box in or stereotype the mix of our day to day relationships so quickly and so conveniently. Even from a brief interaction with an individual, I can easily assess and quickly figure out where a person will or will not fit into my world, based on their looks, interests and personality. Does this individual meet up to my internal standard of what I deem as a current need or desire in my life –right now?

Oh I am sure that many of us don't particularly assimilate thought this way in approaching individuals and yet if we were to look into our every day actions, reactions or the lack thereof in one way or another, this is perhaps what we might find. Whether it is the grocery clerk, the homeless person on the street, an old friend or a new acquaintance.

Labels. Boxes. Stereotypes. Are we strictly defined by the face we present to the world and identified by the packaging the world chooses to see?

Isn’t the beautiful mystery of a human soul not just about felt similarity but, also about all the diversity it represents?

I recognize that I can easily miss the richness of the gift of a conversation or a life so far beyond even my expectation of the moment or perceived "take away". To walk into each conversation not assuming the conclusion or predicting the end but, to take in the whole narrative and all the little bits in between.

To reach for "the mystery" and the gifts that emerge out of a new encounter and also in an old relationship. To hear the musings and to uncover or discover a new dynamic of a stirring soul, not for gain in personal self profit but to connect deeper to the heart of the One who is divine, longs to be known and whose reflection is in the one who is in front of me.

In many ways I feel like I am on the receiving end of labels which deem me capable or incapable of regard, intimacy, relationship, desire, longing and honesty. Often it feels like it borders on an injustice of it's own accord and then I stop and realize how easily and quickly my heart is of like gesture.

My thought through this process is tho' I cannot change another human soul. I can make change to my own heart. To see outside of myself. To really “see”. To really “hear”. To “perceive” in the way my Father does and to truly long to “understand”.

I had a new friend call me out of the blue a couple weeks ago -just to talk. He didn't want anything in particular. He wasn't looking for some insight, answer to a question or resolve. It caught me off-guard cause I remember getting off the phone and asking myself “mmm...I wonder what so and so wanted?” and then I stopped and realized that he had given me a gift in that moment of conversation. He just wanted to talk, have a laugh, shoot the breeze, catch up and perhaps in those moments of innocence, a deeper-far more rarer gift would be found.

I reflect and realize that the simple joy and beauty of a “gift” is perhaps more about the giving than even of the ‘receiving’. Could it be if we approached giving this way – we would become people who could ‘receive’ well. Giving of ourselves motivated from an outward place – less selfish and more selfless - a healthy perspective … no strings attached … the only “expectation” is to love outwardly, care deeply and be willing to understand unconditionally, whether it is reciprocated or returned.

The longing "to know" and then in turn to truly "be known" - it is in all of us. There is a treasure in our souls that is waiting to be unlocked and given away, just as it is in each one who we meet. Sometimes it is awkward, perhaps a little uncomfortable but, if I am willing to search for that which is a sacred treasure in the life of the one who is in front of me, a whole new beautiful unique color in this world will be opened up.

Many times the very experience that has connected us together is not even the gift that the Lord wants to give us in the midst. Sure it is a piece of yet, it is deeper - far more rare - definately at times difficult to find but, if we can push to the core of the soul and that which stirs the deep places there is a mysterious energy that will awaken, bring life, refresh, in turn push us past our ever chasing selfish motives and agendas.

For only Outside of ourself will we in depth and meaning come alive in and through relationship. Perhaps being able to give and receive love in a way that is intrinsically pure and available. Perhaps being the face, hands and voice of understanding, wisdom, life and love.

JESUS.

The labels gone, the boxes shattered. To uncover and discover the rich mysteries of a human soul - in all it's complexities.

This is my prayer.

This Post

2006-09-23T21:26:00.000-07:00

really struck me and thought it was worth mentioning. I found it on Kathryn Scott's Myspace page (she is the writer of the song "Hungry" from the UK). Thanks Kathryn... may we be women and men who choose to live at the foot of the cross daily.

WHEN IT'S A DISAPPOINTING DAY...

From time to time, dreams that we had, hopes that we held, people we trusted, things we thought, don't quite turn out the way we thought they would. When it's a disappointing day, what I'm learning to do is come back to the cross again. It's there that I remember that God knows the power of pain; the burn of betrayal - it's there I can so clearly see that He understands the brokeness of dreams shattered, that His grip on reality in all it's harshness is firmer than mine. And it's there that the promise of redemption, of resurrection, of a sure outcome breaks in. We serve a God who chose brokeness to demonstrate His great love for us - who has walked the road before us - who has the power to change the most disappointing days into the most glorious tomorrows.

This Week

2006-09-14T10:30:00.000-07:00

Has been a week of focused prayer and time with the Lord.

I think the thing that stands out for me in these "set apart" times is the clarity that comes in just settling the heart posture to the still small inner voice who calls us to come. A time to remove distractions, the pulls which call to each of us constantly. Perhaps a time of 'self-cleaning' and re-focusing to the essentials - a de-cluttering of sorts.

I also love to see how in these times of the uniqueness in the ways which the Lord speaks. Not always in the familiar/usual ways yet the timeliness of His Word and life which come alive in depth and simplicity, touching the core of who we are.

This has been a good week so far. A much needed time for so many reasons. Yesterday in my inbox came this reading from the Henri Nouwen Society which again I found timely (see below) -one of the things that I have felt similar sentiment to and passion about. Again a timely message to my heart.

I want to encourage all of you who read this entry ...to take even moments today to settle those busy, anxious places into a time of focus on the one who really does bring life, peace, love and freedom.

And then say that those times of contemplation, meditation and focus are not just for 'self' gratification but to then cause us to look outward to those who are in our life, being a clearer reflection of Whom we center our life towards. In my life that is - JESUS.

On the Journey to Becoming Friends
written by DOUG WEIBE

Friendships are mysterious. They often begin and end when we least them expect them to. We sometimes become friends with people we are not initially drawn to. Sometimes we don't develop the kind of friendship we desire with someone we are attracted to. Some friendships take a lot of work, while others are as natural as breathing.

Friendship is a gift waiting to be revealed with every person I meet. With just a few people, the gift of covenant relationship will be revealed. With very many people, the gift of friendly waves and weather conversations will unfold. In between are the gifts of healthy working friendships, close lifelong friendships, friendships born in crisis, celebration, a shared passion for coffee, golf, children, faith, travel, et cetera.

Friendships are life-giving when we accept, nurture, and celebrate the particular gift that is present in each. Friendships are draining and difficult when we reject the gift by either not accepting the intimacy offered or trying to make the gift more intimate than it was ever meant to be.

These gifts of friendship are scattered like ripe fruit in the gardens of our lives, waiting to be tasted and enjoyed. Each gift is given by a loving God, who knows what we need and who desires a friendship with every one of us. Therefore, while we may choose our friendships, we do not create the gift of friendship. We can work on our friendships, but we cannot change them into something they are not gifted to be. This is the pain and the joy, the poverty and the incredible freedom we experience on the journey to becoming friends.

A Refreshing Read

2006-09-09T12:46:00.000-07:00

Thanks Matt for the link! I found this particularly refreshing. Article found on www.dwillard.org (Dallas Willard's site)

How Does the Disciple Live?
Previously unpublished.

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How the disciple lives naturally comes out of who the disciple is.

As Jesus’ disciple, I am his apprentice in kingdom living. I am learning from him how to lead my life in the Kingdom of the Heavens as he would lead my life if he were I. It is my faith in him that led me to become his disciple. My confidence in him simply means that I believe that he is right about everything: that all that he is and says shows what life is at its best, what it was intended by God to be. “In him was life and the life was the light of men.” (John 1:4 NAS)

Being his apprentice is, therefore, not a matter of special “religious” activities, but an orientation and quality of my entire existence. This is what is meant by Jesus when he says that those who do not forsake all cannot be his disciple. (Luke 14:26 & 33) The emphasis is upon the all. There must be nothing held of greater value than Jesus and his kingdom. He must be clearly seen as the most important thing in human life, and being his apprentice as the greatest opportunity any human being ever has.

When this orientation of the whole life has come upon us and been accepted, then the grace that brought it can begin to move throughout every aspect of what we are and do. Grace is God acting in our lives to bring about what we do not deserve and cannot accomplish on our own. But we are not passive in this process. We are commanded to put off the old person and put on the new. (Col. 3:9-10; Eph. 4:22-24) We are told to “grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.” (II Peter 3:18) This is something for us to do, and , although we cannot do it on our own, it will not be done for us. Being alive in Christ means that we can do whatever it is we need to do to increasingly take on his character and live in his power.

The ultimate outcome of this process is expressed by Paul the Apostle: “Whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks through Him to God the Father.” (Col. 3:17) And again: “Whether, then, you eat or drink or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.” (I Cor. 10:31) My entire life is to be caught up in the life that Jesus Christ himself is now living on earth and will continue throughout eternity. And that is why being his apprentice is the greatest opportunity any human being ever has. That is how grace possesses our whole life. That is how those “saved by grace through faith…are His workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.” (Eph. 2:10)

Living as Jesus’ disciple, I am learning from him how to lead my life in the Kingdom of the Heavens everywhere I am, in every activity I engage in. There are three dimensions of this learning.

First, I am learning to do the things which Jesus explicitly said to do. It is quite literally nonsense to call Jesus “Lord,” and not do what he said. “Lord” means nothing in such a case. (Luke 6:46-49) But because I do accept him as Lord, his instructions on behavior are my treasures for living life. Of course I cannot do what he said by just trying. I must train! I must, through appropriate courses of action, become inwardly transformed by grace to become the kind of person—in my inmost thoughts, feelings, attitudes and directions of will—who will routinely do the kinds of things he said to do. I will then not be governed by anger, contempt or lust. And I will be able to bless those who curse me, love my enemies, and so forth, because I am one in whom the character and power of Christ has come to dwell through the processes of discipleship to Christ.

Second, I am learning to conduct the usual activities of life—in home, school, community, business and government—in the character and power of Christ. Jesus himself, of course, spent most of his life on earth as an “independent contractor” or businessman. Jesus could have led the ordinary life of the ordinary citizen in all of its legitimate respects. He can show us how to live now, as a mother or father, banker or computer programmer, teacher or artist, in the Kingdom of the Heavens. His character and power and personal guidance will lead us into life as it should be in all of these areas of human existence.

Third, I am learning to exercise the power of the kingdom—of Christ in his Word and Spirit—to minister good and defeat evil in all of the connections of earthly existence. “God anointed Jesus of Nazareth with the Holy Spirit and with power, and He went about doing good, and healing all who were oppressed by the devil; for God was with Him.” (Acts 10:38) Apprenticeship to Jesus means that, in tiny steps, we learn to exercise this power seen in Jesus. Growth in character is primary, for power requires substance of character if it is to be used for Christ’s purposes. Christ had no character problems, but we do. Prayer, in its aspect of training for Kingdom life, is primarily a matter of learning to exercise power in a way that is both profitable and safe. Through it, in the usual case, we take our first steps in “receiving abundance of grace” and “reigning in life by One, Jesus Christ.” (Rom. 5:17) So character is more important than power for us, but it does not replace power. The fruit of the Spirit (thoroughly Christlike character) flourishes only in a context of regular communal manifestation of the gifts of the Spirit. And this manifest power of the Spirit in life is not something restricted to “church services.” In this matter also, Jesus is our example and our teacher. He acted with the Kingdom wherever he was. The “rivers of living water” which, as he said “shall flow from the center of the believers life” (from his “belly,” John 7:38), will continually flow from us, as it did from him, wherever we may be.

Now growth in grace—in God acting in our life—is something we must plan for by regular engagement in activities that enable us to receive God’s grace in all areas of our spirit (will), thoughts, feelings, body, social relations, and the deepest depths of our soul. We have been thoroughly “occupied” by sin—which is mainly just exaltation of “me,” and the consequences thereof. Our intention as apprentices of Jesus is to become the kind of person who lives in the character and power of Christ. We must, then, do those things that will enable us to become that kind of person, from the inside out—through appropriate actions and practices.

Such actions and practices are “disciplines for the spiritual life.” They are well-known from observing Christ and his people. They include such practices as solitude, silence, fasting, study, worship, fellowship, prayer, etc. There is no complete list of such practices, though some are more well-known and widely practiced than others, because they are more central to breaking the power of indwelling sin and increasingly filling our life with grace. Disciplines are, in essence, activities in our power that enable us, by grace, to do what we cannot do by direct effort—by “just trying.” We cannot, by just trying, succeed in loving our enemies and heartily blessing those who curse us. But by a wise practice of disciplines in the presence of Christ, we can become people who will routinely and easily do so.

In disciplines we need to be informed and experimental. They are not righteousness, but wisdom. We must be practical with them, and not picky. We must not be ‘heroic’ or think we are earning anything from God. Disciplines for the spiritual life are places in which we meet with Jesus to be taught by him, and he is our guide into how they are best practiced. We should not be overly concerned about how others do them. In a very short time Jesus will lead us into the practice of them that is best for us.

The crucial thing is that, as disciples, we have a plan for carrying out the decision we have made to devote ourselves to becoming like our Master and Lord—to increasingly living in the character and power of Christ. Disciples are those who, seriously intending to become like Jesus from the inside out, systematically and progressively rearrange their affairs to that end, under the guidance of the Word and the Spirit. That is how the disciple lives.

thoughts running through my head ...

2006-09-06T22:29:00.000-07:00

Questions ... random thoughts which have been stirring in my mind sparked by words I have read or conversations had. Not looking for some perfectly poised christian 'answer'. Just reflections ... To reflect is to hopefully cause us to better understand our own souls, motivations and perhaps faith discovery.

A few of my mental rants ... WARNING :: BEWARE this is very honest material below.

Why is it that as believers in our even most noble pursuit of faith and community, we are so motivated from a myopic soul conciousness. Our view of "church" and/or "mission" is so consumerized ... "what can I get out of this community...?" "This community has not met my unspoken, yet hours upon hours of stewed contemplation of frustrations, needs and cries"... Why is our relationship to faith, the Lord and others always so motivated by 'self'.

My Needs ... My Wants ... My Honesty ... My Emotions ... My Service ...Me, Me, Me. Why is it such a struggle to see through the selfless lense, to look through and slowly strip our conciousness of the human 'selfish' struggle. To look at how we can build into something, love someone, give away service ...give away of myself with no secret expectation or motivation in return. PURE SELFLESSNESS.

Perhaps we wouldn't always feel so ripped off by "church" and/or "community" if our pondering thoughts and conversations were more focused towards what I can give, contribute and build rather than what do I get out of this experience or person.

This experience is "failing" me!!! WHAT? What is failure really? Does it really exist? Does the Lord look at that which He gives daily to us as failure? hmmm... or is it more because it doesn't fit with what I think - I need, I want, I desire or I believe to expect. I, I, I...

Why is it ... so often as people the same grace we expect and even at times demand to be given towards ourselves, is so far from that which we are willing to give others in our life. We easily want to cry out for justice in every part of life and yet forget about our own dier need of mercy and grace ... and how we need to initiate that towards others ...?

Why is it that leadership is so dang hard, frustrating and heart wrenching most days. Even when you try to do right of those whom you lead and ultimately before the Lord - you are secretly (and at times not so secretly) judged, maligned, verbally accused and/or scarred all for the sake of personal "process" or "honesty".

Why is it that people often think we don't bleed, feel or hurt. That the verbals and non-verbals can be like a severe sting over and over again. "To be understood" only goes one direction. Why is it so easy to project your own issues on to everyone you meet making it theirs to own and yet really it has nothing to do with them at all. But all about you.

To "listen" through my personal filters and lense or to truly listen from the heart and Spirit? with purity not bias or ambition?

Does the pain of caring for others ever stop? Why does caring feel more painful than joyful?

When will people commit to push past "labels" defined or not in each other to see rare beauty and treasure that is so beyond our human value system. When will we want to discover something new in a person rather than just being content to thinking we have them all figured out and now slotted into our perfect little compartamental world.

When will we choose to see the way Jesus sees - not as the ways of our world.

Can one ever truly love unconditionally from a human form? Or is that only for the divine?

When will we look at others as gifts in our lives -to be cherished and cared for. Valued. Not used and then discarded once we have played long enough with the gift. Time to move on to the next. Relationships - why do we treat them like commodities valued only based on how they make me feel. When that feeling is gone -so are they.

Contentment. What does that really look like? Im realizing that Im not very good at that but, definately long to live from that place ... Then again what is that really ... all I know is that I long to posture my life towards and from that place.

'Loneliness' is it really different than 'aloneness'? I say that all the time but then I stop and ask myself will it ever end?

Fickle Relationships ... Content with shallow understanding -WHY? God help me - I really don't want to be that way!

Brokenness or Barrenness? Is it really either or? How about both and...?

Why does it feel as of late more about constant sacrifice than seeing blessing and provision? Sacrifice because of obedience is way easier for me in some odd way than choosing to believe in the blessing and provision of the Lord. I know it's there but honestly, it's wearing me down. Perhaps, Im just tired of fighting for my elusive dreams? a thought.

"The seeds that are planted in my liberty at every moment, by God's will, are the seeds of my own identity, my own reality, my own happiness, my own sanctity. To refuse them is to refuse everything; it is the refusal of my own existence and being: of my identity, my very self.

Not to accept and love and do God's will is to refuse the fullness of my existence.

If I never become what I am meant to be, but always remain what I am not, I shall spend eternity contradicting myself by being at once something and nothing, a life that wants to live and is dead, a death that wants to be dead and cannot quite achieve it's own death because it still has to exist." - Thomas Merton (Seeds of Contemplation pg.33)

My last thought ... Kingdom Struggle or perhaps just Human Contradiction. One of the same or different? hmmm...

To Blog Or Not To Blog ...

2006-09-04T12:24:00.000-07:00

I have been finding it difficult to write about anything more than these humourous and fairly pointless fun quizzes as of late. Perhaps the novelty of blogging is wearing off somewhat or I just haven't felt inspired to tell the random world out there (whoever reads this...scary thought;) the happenin's of my current life.

Since coming home from Canada beginning of August ...everything has been in summer mode down here which means alot of relaxation and kick back times. Routines and schedules haven't really kicked in just yet however, since we are coming to the close of labour day weekend - life as normal as it is here will then kick into gear fairly quickly.

Last week was a celebration of my dear amazing Grandmother's life. Grandma passed away last week and is dancing up a storm with Jesus and Grandpa in Heaven right now. Grandma was a beautiful lady whose legacy stretches beyond human comprehension to the divine. She was a woman who walked out life with a generosity that I have never seen modeled and lived like no other. Grandma I love you with all my heart and know that you are in a beautiful place. I hold onto all that you were and will always be in my heart and life! Thank you for being a woman who knew how to fear the Lord in such a pure way and one who loved unconditionally sharing from a place of contentment every part of your life with grace and joy! I love you always ...

So, the end of summer is coming to a close quickly and perhaps the beginning of a new season in more ways than one is upon us.

Don't forget to LOVE DEEPLY ... LIVE GENEROUSLY to all and LAUGH ALWAYS through the good and bad. LIFE is WORTH CELEBRATING on the rough road and through the smooth roads. There is always someone and/or something right in front of us worth being thankful for which is a gift in our life brought by the Lord. The rarest treasures are that which take time to uncover and discover. Be willing to explore.

Thanks to you ... D M

2006-08-29T21:54:00.000-07:00

Name:	sheri
Birthdate:	june 16
Birthplace:	Edmonton, AB ... CANADA!
Current Location:	Los Angeles, CA.
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	Brown/Dark Blonde ... Depends what year
Height:	5"6
Weight:	are you kidding ... you first.
Piercings:	ears and nose studd
Tatoos:	nope - thinking about it
Boyfriend/Girlfriend:	definately a BOY ... perhaps a MAN??
Overused Phraze:	"TOTALLY" or "EH" for all you americans
*FAVORITES*
Food:	Ice Cream all the way baby! Peanutbutter Choc/Vanilla to be exact.
Candy:	I don't really like Candy ... But, if I must ... Black licorice Babies.
Number:	7
Color:	RED
Animal:	Dolphin
Drink:	Grande Extra Hot Breve Americano with NO FOAM. An extra shot of espresso doesn't hurt either
Alcohol Drink:	Stella Artois ... Gin/Tonic with a lime ... Don Cucos Margarita's and not all at the same time!
Bagel:	No Thanks.
Letter:	S
Body Part on Opposite sex:	Eyes
*This or That*
Pepsi or Coke:	Diet Pepsi or Diet Dr. Pepper
McDonalds or BurgerKing:	Ick ... Got over that in grade 5 and it would've been McDonald's
Strawberry or Watermelon:	STRAWBERRY! with some BLUEBERRIES on the side!
Hot tea or Ice tea:	HOT TEA
Chocolate or Vanilla	How about a little of both
Hot Chocolate or Coffee:	Coffee (see above)
Kiss or Hug:	Kiss ... I'll take it all tho ;)
Dog or Cat:	Dog
Rap or Punk:	Punk
Summer or Winter:	Christmas but, my favorite season is FALL
Scary Movies or Funny Movies:	Thrillers
Love or Money:	Most definately LOVE ... a little money doesn't hurt either.
*YOUR...*
Bedtime:	around midnight or so ...
Most Missed Memory:	someone
Best phyiscal feature:	Eyes
First Thought Waking Up:	I have to let my dog out to pee ... groan...
Goal for this year:	Conquer Barry's and reap ALL the benefits of it!
Best Friends:	the most incredible people in the Universe. Whom I already miss even when they are right beside me.
Weakness:	Analytical
Fears:	Only 1 really - To grow old alone.
Heritage:	Irish - English - German
Longest relationship:	When did it start and when did it end?
*HAVE YOU...*
Ever Drank:	Yes
Ever Smoked:	Yes
Pot:	Disgusting
Ever been Drunk:	Yes
Ever been beaten up:	No
Ever beaten someone up:	No
Ever Shoplifted:	Yes
Ever Skinny Dipped:	Yes
Ever Kissed Opposite sex:	Yes
Been Dumped Lately:	No
*IN A GUY/GIRL*
Favorite Eye Color:	Blue ... Brown ... Green
Favorite Hair Color:	Doesn't Matter really
Short or Long:	It just has to look HOT
Height:	I prefer tall
Style:	Funky Hip
Looks or Personality:	Yes Please!
Hot or Cute	Ditto
Drugs and Alcohol:	Can you say AA?
Muscular or Really Skinny:	Muscular
*RANDOMS*
Number of Regrets in the Past:	Not Many. Thank God.
What country do you want to Visit:	Every Country ... Seriously I love to TRAVEL!
How do you want to Die:	the least amount of pain
Been to the Mall Lately:	oh yes
Do you like Thunderstorms:	love them! Especially sleeping with the sound of rain right above your head
Get along with your Parents:	love them too!
Health Freak:	Definately aiming for "health" minus the "freak"
Do you think your Attractive:	Yup. Imperfections and all.
Believe in Yourself:	Yuppers
Want to go to College:	Been there done that. Might want to go back tho...
Do you Smoke:	No
Do you Drink:	Yes -occasionally
Shower Daily:	Yes -so should you!
Been in Love:	Thought so ... But now I have seen the light. Not Yet.
Do you Sing:	Love singing
Want to get Married:	Yes
Do you want Children:	Sure ...
Have your future kids names planned out:	Micah
Age you wanna lose your Virginity:	Seriously ...
Hate anyone:	Hate is a strong word.
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

My Dream Life ...

2006-08-22T22:25:00.000-07:00

You Belong in Milan

Stylish and sophisticated, you want to enjoy a truly European life - away from tourists!
Milan fits you perfectly. Great shopping, high quality food, lots of culture... with very little hype.

What European City Do You Belong In?

Amazing ...

2006-08-08T11:50:00.000-07:00

Had an absolutely incredible time back home. I must say it was a whirlwind of trips and in many ways wish that I had more time to just hang out with family and friends who are so dear to my heart. Here's to October ...

Just got home yesterday and trying to take a day to reorganize my life back home with all the activities that go with that. I will re-emerge properly tomorrow (wed) Today is hermit day for me:)

When I first arrived into Calgary my brother picked me up and I stayed overnight so, that I could have a little visit with Kevin, Barb and my oh so addorable nephews. The time was so short but, I wouldn't have missed this for the world. I'm hoping that they will be able to make it down here for Christmas ... that is the tenative plan anyway.

I went out to Street Invaders (this is the program I helped pioneer and directed for a few years) so, in many ways it was like coming home to fond familiarity. Sights, smells, sounds of laughter reminiscing over many stories, hilarious jokes and waaaaay too much pumpkin icecream! The Bootcamp Training (there seems to be a reaccuring theme in my life as of late;) is held in Eston, SK. at the Bible College I graduated from so, once again faculty alike along with many close friends were on campus. I spearheaded the leadership teaching for all the team leaders and assistant leaders with a few bootcamp staff in the mix and then preached last wednesday night. It was a heap of fun and the Lord really did move in a powerful way. It really felt this year that the majority of the youth were ready for substance, "meat" if you will. The weaning off the "milk" was happening all last week. And let me say that the food which was given by Him was so very rich and full of necessary nutrients! A call into maturity.

::Prayer:: Thanks Jesus cause I certainly felt inadequate in many ways this time around. Again I am reminded that it really is nothing about me and truly about YOU. My heart posture is only to be an open conduit of your love, freedom, and strength even in the midst of all my own brokenness. I am again reminded that "without brokenness there is only barrenness."

One of the personal highlights for me was a small group of very close friends (you know who you are;) spent one very late evening just praying over me and calling back places of who I am in Him. This was so beautiful and healing in many respects. I look at my time back home where I am known, loved and trusted and realize that this trip was more for me than even what I could give away or pour out into others. A gift from the Lord for me. Many a time 'familiarity' can be a dangerous thing leading to despondance and routine but this trip was a healing familiarity that washed off some of the difficulties of the last 9 months calling forward and reminding me once again Who I am. My identity. What I carry. The Call - words of truth activated in my life. Restoring confidence. Safety. Perhaps the ability to trust again ... ? Restoration ... For we do not wage war with flesh and blood but, principalities and powers that have been assigned to tear down and demolish all that HE - Jesus is at work alive in US! (Ephesians 6) How subtle the warfare can be erroding the life of Christ we so often easily can fight for in and for others and yet forget about ourselves and the war that is over our own life.

I then spent a day and a half back in Calgary (Saturday evening/Sunday) which was a blur of activity ... Saturday Night a little party was thrown for me at the Hop N' Brew (a cool little pub in downtown Calgary) and it was so awesome to see friends and have a good laugh! Sunday was a run around day to pick up good ole' Canadian things that I cannot get down here and then I really wanted to have a little visit with my dear grandma. I am so glad that I was able to see her, she is so beautiful! Sunday Night I spoke at EPIC and again incredible ministry, timely prayer. Thank you Merlin and Daniel!

I am home now. Bailey is back to normal from all his crazy drama just before I left. ThankYOU Jen and Shannon for watching my little one. You guys rock!!!

An extra special shout out to:

Larry - you truly are one of my heroes in life. Thanks for always believing in me, fighting for me and on my behalf when I am weak. You are an incredible Father to your own boys and then to so many who love you and will walk 10,000 miles beside you. I love to watch how and what Jesus is doing in your life ...

Alexandra/Ryan - My dear dear friends ... That one night at the Kentwood was HILARIOUS! I think we need more experiences that make us feel like we are 15 all over again!!!! You are a GIFT to me and I love you deeply. Here's to dreams, promise and destiny.

Dave - Thanks for driving me all over and just wanting to spend time with me. I admire you Dave - really. I love how you "SEE" and the maturity growing in you is liberating. You are on a good path and your personal journey really is beautiful.

Nigel/Curtis and Derrick - I don't even know if you guys read this or not. Either way ... You guys are so much fun and all 3 of you make me feel like a Princess in every way and I love it! (even when you are late;) Derrick I am just getting to know you and it is an honor. You are a good man in every way - remember that! Curtis, I wish that we had more time to just hang with each other. Thanks for driving out to Eston to see me -you bring joy to my heart and I really do care about you and all the dreams over your life. Nigel, there is so much I could say about you - another time and place. But, know this - I really love you.

Nancy - I have already told you this ... you are so beautiful and a beloved friend for life. I honor your journey.

Jayda and Chris - Your Faith and Courage is inspiring and so incredible to me. You both are such close friends and I admire/honor you for the path you have been walking and the faithfulness of your hearts. Here is to a new corner to be turned! In my prayers and heart ... Love always...

Shanda - Dear one ... Go Girl - your life is just about to begin. Though the horizon feels still unclear in many ways - The Sun is shining strong over your life bringing hope, joy, dream and favour!

Kevin Friesen - It always is a good laugh to see you. Thank you for "noticing" and "inspiring me" in my new pursuit! That in intself was like good medicine to my soul. Here's to new life and love;) Remember Kev, we are not getting older ... we are getting better!

Jacquie - our annual visits (as of late) are always so refreshing! Old friends are like pure water to the soul. You are this to me Jacq. My beautiful friend.

Rachel/Tanya/Faye - Oh my gosh I so love to party with you girls ... you are so safe and the familiarity we have with one another feels liberating to my heart. Makes me feel like perhaps I have done something right in my life ;) I love the fact that I am known to you and still loved. DON'T EVER GIVE UP even when it feels unclear and a little gray. Remember that! Tracy I am so glad that we saw each other - you rock sista!!

Daniel/Jen - Thank you so much for opening up your home ... waaaay to brief! The way you keep praying, fighting with me and loving me is so beautiful -gives me hope for the future and strength for tomorrow.

Ari/Sally/Christian and little Anni - hmmm...Diner Deluxe. You to me are like the "finer things in life". I miss you always and know that one day our paths again will be closer together than they are just right now. You are trusted and loved deeply.

There are so many more ... I could go on and on ... Greg, Simon, Ashley, Ashley, all the SI leaders that I got to hang with - I admire you all and am cheering you on! All you Street Invaders who read this - GO GO GO, Fight and never give up! what HE SPEAKS over your life IS TRUE!!! Hold to those words of Life and they will carry you and cause you to run with adventure! My EPIC Family - you are loved and missed daily. Your prophetic insights were dead on Sunday Night and a life line to me. Thanks for wanting to know me and loving me constant. Kevin, Barb, Nathan, Matt, Joshua and Grandma ... You are all so beautiful to me, precious, loved in every way. Thanks for your encouragement Barb, it means alot to me. Kevin - you are my beloved brother, our bond will never be matched by any other. I love you forever. My dear nephews ... I look forward to every time that we can laugh together and discover something new. Even though we are far apart you are so close to my heart -that never ever changes. Grandma - the matriarch in our family. You are beautiful, strong, a woman of faith who has cared and loved always. I pray that you would know the closeness and peace of Jesus, one day soon you will be with Him and grandpa is there waiting for you. I love you always Grandma.

To all of you whom I missed this time around ... October is coming quickly! Yippee:)

::Prayer:: Here I am Lord, thank you for the fresh breath. I look to YOU to give me strength, Hope for tomorrow, Life for today and more love to come. I CHOOSE YOU!

Canada Here I Come ...

2006-07-27T09:39:00.000-07:00

Woohoo ... well, it is ahappenin! I am leaving this afternoon for the homeland! The good ole' red and white ... C a N a D a! At a sudden turn of events the Street Invaders Posse' invited me up to the mothership program in Eston, SK. This is the program that I have been directing. It is absolutely fantastic and YES, I am biased!

So, the plan is that I leave today arrive late into Calgary (just before midnight) my dear sweet brother is going to pick me up and I am going to crash at his place for the night where I get to visit with my family ... amazing little nephews for a bit tomorrow morning. Then off I go to Eston, SK. where I will leading the Leadership Development Training for all the Team Leaders. I am there with the gang until August 5th. Then I head back to Calgary for a very brief time with my Epic Family. Saturday Night a party is being thrown and then Sunday Night I will be sharing with the Epic Fam, leading into Monday, Aug. 7th where I am heading back home to LA. As you can see it is going to be a whirlwind of a trip and as much as I wish that I could see so many of you with individual time to boot - I just don't know how it all is going to happen. With this trip, time is definately not my own.

Here are some prayer points ...please.

*Tuesday afternoon I took Bailey in for his yearly vaccinations and he is not doing well. Barely walking, hardly drinking, in alot of discomfort. The vet said the symptons could last 24-48 hours. Well, it has now been a good 36 hours and still no major improval. Please pray for him! Im stressed cause he is staying with a good friend of mine here who has a very busy active household and to put him in a totally new environment makes me a little nervous. He really needs healing!!!!

*Pray for my preparation and ministry time at Street Invaders. I am teaching 4-5 sessions leaders only and then preaching in the main meeting Wednesday Evening, August 2nd. That I would hear and communicate the heart and ministry of the Holy Spirit to these young people and adults alike.

*Pray for significant connections during this time ... I am so looking forward to seeing my dear friends and really believing for some key moments together encountering the realness of genuine friendship and all the beauty it holds. That because my time is short and full of activity that those I am needing to connect with would happen and be set up by Him just perfectly!

Safety, health as I travel and don't get much sleep!

These are the main pray bulletins right now.

Love and warm affection to you all.

Blessings
Sheri

IM BACK!

2006-07-25T17:45:00.000-07:00

Saturday Evening I arrived back into LA from Germany extraodinaire ... Had a GREAT time! Trying to summarize highlights is always a difficult thing so, let's see where do I begin? As I mentioned previously I went over with 5 fantastic guys who are good friends and absolutely incredible musicians! We arrived into Schwabisch Hall ...what a beautiful little hamlet in Germany ... I so wish that i had a digital camera to show you pictures - perhaps one day. There is a small Vineyard Church led by Martin/Heike Buchwitz in Schwabish who are an incredible family with fantastic kids! They hosted a conference that we were all a part of and it was cool cause we arrived a couple days earlier and were able to really check out their town. So very quaint - it felt like we walked into a Shakespeare novel (with a german twist;) or period piece of sorts. Met some really cool people at this conference and the Lord really deposited some deep pieces of truth in the area of worship and justice.

Martin was our driver/host and took us everywhere throughout Germany to Hannover, Speyer, Haiger and then into Berlin. Marc Pusch joined us from Vineyard Music Canada ...ahhhh...gotta love some more Canada into the mix! Each of these places held some unique experiences and connections that were purely divine.

Lots of pictures, laughs, team bonding moments and way too much beer was drunk! Now don't get the wrong idea here;) The German culture looks at Beer as the equivalent of water ... hence that most 16 year olds in Germany are holding a pint wherever they go... that is the drinking age. Definately tried out a whole variety of German Beer! Hey, when in Rome (Germany) do as the Romans (Germans) do!:) Anyway, the various churches treated us very well and it was so cool to see how the Lord moved in ways beyond our human inginuity. Love it!

Berlin was really cool! 30, 000+ filled the Berlin Stadium a day of worship hosted by Noel Richards with hundreds af artists, dancers, etc... Our guys did amazing!!! Other highlights were Delirious and Matt Redman for me personally as pretty much all of my day was spent with David May and the help of Marc, we sat in a merch tent all day and might I add the whole time we were in Germany the heat was unbelievable!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like 38 celcius plus and the germans don't have airconditioning (except for the occasional vehicle) nor do they believe in fans!! We thought we were going to die... For real ... funny as Californians we thought we were going to die!!! We are spoiled with our AC.

Our last night in Berlin...Bobby, Ari and I decided to make an all night excursion and tour Berlin throughout the night till 7:30AM next morning! Totally fun... and the guys got fantastic pictures!! The artwork over in Germany - so beautiful!

Those random facts that are mentionable about Germany:

-"Jorts"- Germans love to roll their jeans up thus creating "jorts" ...seriously I have never seen so many jorts in my life. David May took many a hilarious picture and the creator of this new term
-Water with Gas- Yes, that is what they call it! And let me say for some that is exactly what it created - GAS that is. I love sparkling water ... but WARM sparkling is pretty disgusting, leading me to where the heck are all the ...
-ICECUBES ... no such thing anywhere - except McDonalds! I milked my Coca Cola Light (aka Diet Coke) with ICE like never before!!! You ask for ICE they give you ICECREAM! YES... I tried that a few times. Now, I LOVE ICECREAM but, not every time I try to order a drink. I still cannot remember the actual german word for ICECUBES. Talk about a good laugh...watching sheri act out "ICECUBES"....
-FANS-They don't know what this is???? I have never sweat so much in my entire life!
-BEER- "Yes, please all the time!" is a german's motto. What? Drink water? What for? Side Note: Beer is actually cheaper than ordering water in restaurants. And trust me - you don't want to drink tap water over there.

After the team part of the tour was over David May and I travelled to Heidelberg for a couple days. David spent 9 months over there in School and oh my gosh...what a beautiful place! Honestly felt like we walked into a storybook. David took me to his favorite places and we frequented many a cafe/restaurant. It was very cool!

Then we spent a few days with my family in the Bonn/Cologne area which was sooooo cool! David swam laps with Gaby (my cousin) 2-3 times a day in the local watering hole (or as they call "lake") Seriously so HOT there ... We walked through Cologne and then also went to Bonn area with my last night at a big fair/festival in Bonn and the most amazing fire works display over the Rheine I have ever seen!

My Family ROCKS!

So, now here I am back in LA for a few days and getting ready for another trip up north to Canada on Thursday (27th) for 10 days to hit up Calgary, the Street Invaders Crew and EPIC Posse! Looking forward to this trip tho' I have to say these few days since being home (3 days to be exact) is somewhat of a whirlwind!

Ok, I think that I am done "reporting" for now. Will keep posting as it all comes...

Deutsch Land Here I Come ...

2006-07-02T21:55:00.000-07:00

HEY Friends ...

Time is tick tick tickin' away ... Tuesday Morning July 4th I am heading off to GERMANY! Yippeeeee. Fun Times will be had by all - count on it!

We are flying out the morning of the 4th to Atlanta, GA. and then departing the evening of the 4th for Stuttgart. We arrive into Stuttgart on the morning of the 5th. Where we will be picked up by some new friends and our itinerary is as follows.

July 5-9th : Schwabisch Hall
July 9-10th : Hannover
July 11-12th : Speyer
July 12-13th : Haiger
July 13-15th : Berlin
July 15-16 : Schwabisch Hall
July 16-18th : Heidelberg
July 18-22nd : Bonn/Cologne Area

I am flying over with David Ruis and our Band/Team - a bunch of great guys ... and the plan is to do worship nights/concerts/art workshops/ministry from the 5-13th in all these various locations with Vineyard Communities and then when we hit Berlin we are working with an organization called "Calling All Nations" www.callingallnations.com (check it out) where we will be filling the Berlin Stadium with thousands of worshippers (approx. 30,000+) worshipping our one true God! The stadium that Hitler used to do all his rally's in. The last part I will be hanging with a good friend checking out Heidelberg where he went to College -with of course many laughs! And then the finale' is seeing my most amazing family in the Bonn/Cologne area who I have not seen for a loooonnnnggg time! Approx. 5 years.

So, it is going to be a full couple of weeks! Appreciate all your prayers while I am on my little adventure. I won't be taking my comp with me so, therefore won't be blogging for a couple weeks but, get ready for a full report upon my return!

Blessings to you all ... and as they say in Germany (perhaps not spell it this way;)

Chuse

sheri

A beautiful moment

2006-06-26T21:14:00.000-07:00

I want to share a moment I had today that was really beautiful for me. A few friends and myself went to the Forest Lawn Cemetary and Mossuleum here in Glendale (LA). I have always enjoyed walking through cemetaries ... I don't know why but there really is something so beautiful in these places. It doesn't feel sad to me in anyway. Quiet, reflective, peaceful. This particular cemetary you would never ever think existed in the swirl of LA. It is like you are taken back in time to old Europe. (Sidenote: my favorite place in the universe...Europe!) Anyway ... As we were going through some of the galleries and country side, I was walking down this one part of the mossuleum were beautiful marble art pieces were displayed and there before me on one of the walls carved into the stone was this quote that really captured something very deep for me. It was a moment in time that was really beautiful for me.

"If we could surround ourselves with forms of beauty, the evil things of life would tend to disappear and our moral standards would be raised. Through our contact with the beautiful we see more of the truth and are brought into closer contact with the infinite." -Calvin Coolidge

This is my prayer tonight.

well...Birthday Celebrations were had

2006-06-21T10:08:00.000-07:00

and it was FUN! Thank you to all who dropped me a note, email and/or a phone call! That really does mean so much to me :) (aunt marilyn - you are always so amazing at remembering birthdays sorry to have missed your call - the countdown for Germany is on!;)

I did a small intimate shindig at the "Velvet Margarita" on the Friday night with a few friends and then the party kicked it up a few notches on Saturday night at our loft with an absolutely amazing dinner prepared by Doug Mathews and his beautiful wife Rachel. I cannot even pronounce all that we had from pork tenerloin to chicken provance with herbs, assortments of cheese and appetizers, ceasar salad ... the list for real goes on and then for dessert we did a cold stone icecreamery thingee where people could choose all their own toppings! Ice Cream is my favorite of all favorites and then we had Margaritas on tap ... blended, on the rocks, champagne with strawberries also for dessert along with a free flowing Chocolate Fountain! That is right!!! OK...it was just one class, ritzy act! I loved it!

And then a few of us danced the night away to 80's music and all that groovy stuff ...

Wish you all could have been there! It was also so much fun to have Greg/Teresa Trask and family hanging all the way from Abbotsford, Canada. That made the party extra special for me:)

Yesterday I spent the day/evening in SanDiego with the Trasks at SeaWorld. We had so much fun!!! I was driving down the I5 south towards SanDiego and sometimes I have these moments where all of a sudden it hits me. I LIVE in flippin CALIFORNIA!

Interesting how even in a beautiful place one can get lost in just the survival of living life. Well, yesterday was a moment where I felt like I lost myself in the beauty of this place that the Lord has brought me to. From the beautiful ocean to the incredible palm trees, foliage and flowers. Oh the fragrances... To the laid back california sun, surf and mindset that goes with it. I need to explore more. Oh how I love the water ... one of my secret little dreams is that one day - one day I will be able to live close by if not at the ocean. who knows ...

Well, I need to do some work here. Bye for now:)

sheri

Birthday Eve ... Birthday Eve ... Birthday Eve ...

2006-06-15T18:19:00.000-07:00

My last evening of being the ripe old age of 28! Haha ... in my dreams 28 and most days what I feel yet, some mornings I look at myself and go ... man, I never used to look like this first thing in the morning... oh the joys of getting older and hopefully a little wiser ;)

I was awoken first thing this morning by a rousing rendition of HAPPY BIRTHDAY by my dear mother, who I kindly let finish her enthusiastic chorus and then gently reminded her that my Birthday is actually tomorrow! ok AWKWARD! hahaha... My mom replied by saying a few times over well, it's Thursday today! And I said yes, but my BDAY is the 16th - that is tomorrow. So, after she realized that she was looking over a 2005 calendar and had it wrong a little chuckle ensued the senior, retired moment. Better early than not at all -right!

So, all you voyeurs ... I expect to see some Birthday Shout Outs filling either my comments section of this blog or my email inbox. That would do my heart good!

Birthday Festivities to come:

tadadddaaaaaaa around 5am(ish) or so on June 16th the story goes, a very small 5 pound baby was born in Edmonton, AB. Canada (uhum...that would be ME:)

Friday - June 16th - I usually like to spend a melancholic girl day ... After I spend the morning grocery shopping for my saturday shindig ... The afternoon will be all about

*Matinee - 'The Lake House' - Keanu Reeves/Sandra Bullock. No romance of my own yet so, I need to vicarously live through the screen satisfying this romantic that I am.
*Pedicure - Oh I love being a girlie girl!!!
*Lots of Fun Coffee
*Working Out
8:30PM Dinner with a small group of friends at the "VELVET MARGARITA" on Sunset in Hollywood
*Perhaps a little dancing ??

Saturday - June 17th
*Sleep In!! Hopefully if Bailey lets me .. I have him fully trained now on my usual 5:30am wake up calls...groan!
*Lunch with a couple friends
*Finish getting the loft ready for my PARTY!
8PM BIRTHDAY PARTY at the LOFT!!!! Dinner, Margarita's, yummmmmiiii food, about 30 LA Friends and my good friends from Canada 'Trasks'. 80's music, laughs and all that fun party stuff!

So...there you have it - this will be a celebration of ME - starting tomorrow! yipppppeeeeee.....

ONLY 4 MORE DAYS ... TILL ...

2006-06-12T08:57:00.000-07:00

MY BIRTHDAY!!! woohhhoooooooooo ....

The COUNT DOWN Is ON!

2006-06-09T22:14:00.000-07:00

To MY BIRTHDAY that is ... 7 days from today everyone! Just a reminder ;) lol... June 16th is the happy happy day. Plans are slowly coming together for my Birthday Week celebs! whehehee ... The highlights being

DUKES in Malibu! Check out the link www.dukesmalibu.com -you will all wish you were coming. That is Friday, June 16th at 8PM

Then on the Saturday Night I am throwing a big party at our Loft with a few of my favorite things such as: Margarita's, Sushi, frozen Yogurt/Icecream and all the toppings .... 80's Music ....

Anybody wanna come down and party with us??? You have a week to get down here:) That would be so awesome!

Love to you all
sherix

Rachel's Painting from the Recording

2006-06-07T09:54:00.000-07:00

A close up view ...Amazing, Amazing, Amazing!!!!

See below for more Loft/Recording Photo's

Recording/Loft Pictures #3

2006-06-07T09:49:00.000-07:00

Loft Recording Photo's #2

2006-06-07T09:45:00.000-07:00

Some more ...

Recording/Loft Pictures

2006-06-07T09:28:00.000-07:00

HI All ... just posted a big long blog last night but, wanted to show you some pictures from the recording we did just a couple weeks ago! It went amazing ... We had dance happenin' led by Alexandra Hayes/Crystal Loszchuk/Jennifer Belt and Melissa Bartlotti. Plus, Artwork by Rachel Ford and Andy Visser. We also had Chad Shelton who we commissioned to do an amazing piece of sculpture during the recording. The Band of course...amazing...video... We had it all -pretty much;) Enjoy the view -Photography by Lee Dralle
(Please note: I am going to have to do this in a couple posts)

Finally ...a new post beginning here below

2006-06-06T21:53:00.000-07:00

There are always at least a dozen excuses as to why my tardiness to blogging as of late. I just finished checking out the newly designed EPICMX.COM website. Looks amazing Chad! I am sure that you are the genius behind that re-design. WOW ... I sure miss all of you in CowTown.

I have been fairly reflective these days. Why is that, I don't know? Perhaps it is a mixture ... the 'coming down' from an insanely busy month of May along with an assortment of processing thoughts. We completed a live recording project with David Ruis and Indigika. I was out travelling 4 times the month of May. Preparing for Germany July '06 and all the details which ensue. We moved into our newly acquired LOFT Space, I had a few dear friends visit me the month of May. Let's just say it all was ahappenin'!

So, I'm kinda tired, been wrestling with my melancoly mind and heart for sometime. Some days are good and others the loneliness seem to great to bear. I have my survival tactics like we all do and lately they seem to be more healthy options than my past choices. Definate bonus! One being 'BARRY'S BOOTCAMP'! No, I have not joined the US Army. Ha! That is a scary thought ... However, for all you non- LA friends who read this blog (which is pretty much everyone) check out www.barrysbootcamp.com if interested. This will give you an accurate picture of what has my mind, body and soul focused on for the last 5 weeks.

Picture this ... My alarm goes off at 5:20AM 5 days a week ... I very slothfully roll out of bed, as I stumble through the dark to find my workout gear, I wash my face-throw my hair up and off I go with waterbottle and towel in hand. I take 4 freeways to Sherman Oaks and end up arriving into the entry way of Bootcamp at about 6:15am. Yes, the trip is approx. 30MIN.

At 6:30am the motley crew of us who definately are now all 'regulars' walk into a heat, sweat infested small room (the 5:30am class is just ending) with approx. 15 treadmills lining one wall of mirrors and benches, weights and rubber bands in the other half of the room. The room is dark black except for the colored pot lights aimed strategically on every piece of equipment. Your body temperature begins to rise as soon as the doors open. Every morning I am praying and asking the Lord to help me, cause it seems overwhelming the soreness and pain I am about to subject my body to. Nothing I have ever experienced before. The music starts pumping - LOUD and Nadia our trainer jumps up with enthusiasm. She is amazing! She is about 5 foot nothing and maybe 100 pounds. Honestly, I have never seen a woman so perfectly built, toned and sculpted like her. Seriously. She is really cool! Really energetic and knows when to push push push you past your boundaries each time. She starts yelling out in Bootcamp fashion the "plan" for the hour. Our class is 1 hour long. 30 minutes cardio (treadmill) and 30 minutes floor. Each day targets a certain muscle group.

Monday-ARMS
Tuesday-LEGS
Wednesday-ABS+CHEST
Thursday-BACK+SHOULDERS
Friday-5on5off (everything)

Off we go on the treadmill. And we are not talking run at the same speed for 30 minutes. All interval training to the core and your speeds decrease and increase intermittently.

Honestly, I have NEVER sweat so much in my entire life!!! Every pore is pouring out sweat! Even my ankles are sweating! So, now that you know what my morning's are like here -you can all pity me/or should I say ;) cheer me on in my recent obsession!

This has been really good for me in so many ways and not just the obvious! This definately is my most committed and closest relationship right now.

So, I pulled out a poem that Faye sent me about a month ago -that today I was meditating on as it brought life to my heart. I will write it here below. Also, I was meditating on Jeremiah 17:5-8 for the last couple days. Great passage of scripture! Check it out. It pretty much articulates where my heart has been of late.

My Birthday is coming quickly ...perhaps another reason why I have been reflective. hmmm... I will speak more to that at a later date.

Check out this poem :: by Catherine of Sienna
HIS LIPS UPON THE VEIL

He has never left you
It is just that your soul is so vast
that just like the earth in it's innocence
it may think,
"I do not feel my lover's warmth
against my face right now."

But look, dear,
is not the sun reaching down it's arms
and always holding a continent in His light?
God cannot leave us.
It is just that our soul is so vast,
we do not always feel His lips
upon the veil.

PS - I just realized that I should have called this post "A tribute to Barry and his bootcamp"! HAHAHAH ... oh well - now you have a peak into a fairly huge thing in my life right now. More details to follow on the rest of my happenin's. Need to head off to bed -to be ready for 5:20 tomorrow. ....groan....ugh!

Just a couple more pictures ...

2006-05-26T23:01:00.000-07:00

-Click on the individual image to enlarge

Recording ... Completed!

2006-05-26T22:55:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to let all you know out there in cyber land that we had an amazing time with the recording ... it finished late last night. Only have had about 3 hours of sleep in the last in the last 48 hours so, will write more very soon. In the meantime here are a few recent pictures thanks to Crystal -enjoy!

-Click on the individual image to enlarge

peace
sheri

A Special Day in History!

2006-05-11T23:41:00.000-07:00

My MOM'S BIRTHDAY!!!! Yahhhoooo....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM I love you now, always and forever xoxoxoxoxoxox

Good News and Not So Good.

2006-05-02T17:10:00.000-07:00

Ok ... the good first. My very good friend Teresa Trask is flying in tonight to hang here with me for about a week. Can you say GIRL PARTY! I can hardly wait ...so much fun. I love my dear friend - good times had by one and all.

Now ... the not so good. Well, as you know (at least all my Calgary friends) the plan was for me to head back up to the truth north strong and free - C A N A D A - for June. However, it is to my deep sadness that due to scheduling conflicts on every side with the Calgary groups who were going to bring David and I in. They all have pulled out and hoping to rebook for another time. This of course does not settle the immediate hope of coming home and connecting for awhile - for me that is.

So, I don't know when the next time I will be coming home... If you are connected with Street Invaders in any capacity this is when you need to be phoning and speaking with Larry Moore that he should fly me up for a good ole' eston bootcamp in August!! You could do a "fly sheri home petition" ... anyone going to jump on the cause???!!!!!!!

Most of July I will be in Germany ... but, August would be a good month! so, hinthint all my Calgary possee ... anything happenin' that I need to be flying back home for? Please say so!!!

love you all. Hopefully, I will be seeing you all sooner rather than later.

Washington, DC

2006-04-29T11:32:00.000-07:00

Have been in DC since Wednesday Night, it has been an incredible time. Have connected with an organization called 'International Justice Mission' www.ijm.org

Absolutely incredible the work that is going on through the ministry of these lives in the areas of slavery, human trafficking, citizenship rights, childhood prostitution. Andrey Sawchenko my dear cousin, is the Director of operations for the Thailand base in Chiang Mai. He and his wife Jen moved there approx. a year and half ago and the work that is happening over there and in many other countries of the world is so incredible! Currently, I am at the annual global prayer gathering for IJM and for the first couple of days David, Doug and I met with a few key IJM leaders to talk about various partnership ways that we can work together in the area of Justice as this is a personal mandate from the Lord that we are putting our hands to in the context of what we are pioneering in our current Los Angeles context (Basileia) and then into the International scope. Of course we also spent a full day/evening touring DC -wow what a place! The monuments/museums/parks/waterfront and restaurants (Georgetown). Definately a fun day was had!!

Today so far I have spent time in the prayer rooms with IJM Thailand, Rwanda, Kolkutta and the UK. Tonight we are gathering together for worship/prayer and then late tonight heading over to 'the capital' for a night vigil of prayer.

It has been a "extra special blessing" to be able to hang with Andrey/Jen, Marilyn and Lou. There are new things that the Lord is stirring in my heart and a reminder again of that which He already placed in my heart years ago.

Thank you Jesus!

Note: Be sure to pick up a copy of Gary Haughn's book "The Good News About Injustice". A definate must read.

If you are a believer of Christ - your heart and life compass must be focused towards Justice.
The worship of Christ and mandate of His mission for us as His followers leaves no room for compromise or inactivity in this area. We must be men and women who seek God and who seek Justice. This is integral to the life of a follower of Christ! Micah 6:8, Isa. 5:6-8,12/Psalm 37/Psalm 12/Mathew 23

Pictures -Part 2

2006-04-25T08:39:00.000-07:00

I couldn't upload them all in one hit - so here are some more! Enjoy

Pictures

2006-04-25T08:34:00.000-07:00

Here ya' go - a few of my pad and also our new hang "The Loft" also really known as our "Living Room" a place of sanctuary!

Thanks James

2006-04-20T12:17:00.000-07:00

your email of a couple weeks ago really spoke into my heart! I have been meaning to write you back - it is coming soon. This quote you sent me has really captured something in me ... I am still thinking through it...Thank you. I really appreciate the way you think and then in turn walk it out. You are an inspiration. Blessings.

Your friend.

"We have been silent witnesses of evil deeds; we have been drenched by many storms; we have learnt the arts of equivocation and pretense; experience has made us suspicious of others and kept us from being truthful and open; intolerable conflicts have worn us down and even made us cynical. Are we still of any use?" - Dietrich Bonhoeffer, After Ten Years, 1932.

LABELS

2006-04-19T00:26:00.000-07:00

Ok ... So, I have really been thinking about this whole topic lately. LABELS.

The concept of "labels". Why is it that it is so easy to "label" people and the expectations or the lack thereof they as individuals will or will not fulfill in our life. Our humanity and survival instincts seem to easily box or stereotype the mix of our day to day relationships so quickly and so conveniently. I can so easily assess, rub shoulders with an individual and quickly figure out where this person will fit into my world (that is if they make "the cut") based on looks, interests and personality. Does this person "fit" what I deem as a current need or desire in my life -now? Funny, how we perhaps don't particularly assimilate thought this way in approaching individuals and yet if one was to analyze it even just a little bit - isn't this what we do every day by our actions or expressions in one way or another with each other? Whether it is the grocery clerk, the homeless person on the street, an old friend or new acquaintance. Labels. Boxes. Stereotypes.

I have been thinking how I can so easily miss the richness of the gift of a conversation or a life so far beyond even my expectation of the moment or perceived "take away".

I so want to walk into each conversation not assuming the ending or the conclusion of a conversation but, take in the whole narrative and all the little bits in between. I want to reach for "the mystery" and the gifts that emerge out of a new encounter and in an old relationship. I want to hear the musings and uncover a new dynamic of a stirring soul.

In many ways I feel like I am on the receiving end of labels which deem me capable or incapable of regard, intimacy, relationship, desire, longing and honesty. It is angered me as of late cause often it feels like it borders on an injustice of it's own accord. Though I have to say ...my current thought through this process is tho' I cannot change another human thought or opinion towards me. I can change my heart to how I respond to others and so this is therefore my heart response in the midst of this current frustration.

I had a new friend call me out of the blue a couple weeks ago -just to talk. He didn't want anything in particular. He wasn't looking for some insight, answer or resolve. He just wanted to talk. It caught me off-guard cause I remember getting off the phone and asking myself mmm...I wonder what so and so wanted? and then i realized that he gave me a gift in that moment of conversation. A gift that I feel is so rare in my life. He just wanted to talk, have a laugh, shoot the breeze, catch up and perhaps in those moments of innocence, a deeper-far more rarer gift would be found. I know that I found a gift. I found it in his phone call that day and it poured over my soul in such a rich way.

The longing "to know" and then in turn to truly "be known" - it is in all of us. There is a treasure in your soul that is waiting to be unlocked and given away, just as it is in each one who we meet. Sometimes it is awkward, perhaps a little uncomfortable but, as I look over my life I see that if I am willing to search for that which is so rare in the life of one who is in front of me a whole new world is opened up that is beautiful and unique. Funny how many times the very "thing" that has connected us together is not even the gift that the Lord wants to give us in the midst of the connect. It is so much deeper - far more rare - definately at times difficult to find but, if we can push to the core of the soul and that which stirs the deep places there is a piece that will awaken, bring life, refresh, push us past our selfish motives and agendas. We will come alive in and through relationship in depth and meaning. Perhaps being able to give and receive love in a way that is more pure and available. Perhaps being the face, hands and voice of understanding, life and love. At least I can honestly say, I really hope so. I want the labels gone, the boxes shattered. This is my prayer right now... To uncover the mystery's of a human soul and to be uncovered in all it's complexities and mystery.

Busy Busy Girl ...

2006-04-16T18:34:00.000-07:00

'Tis the season ...or should I say month for being busy!

Xpuctoc Vockpec! (from russian translation "Christ is Risen!")
Happy Easter everyone!

As I say above this month has been super busy hence the reality that I have not updated my blog for some time. Thank you to everyone who have been praying for this young adult girl whom anita and I have befriended and working with. No further updates as of yet however, I will keep you posted as circumstances evolve and gradually unfold.

I was in Yuba City last wknd. (45 minutes outside Sacramento) with a great group of people who were hosting an arts conference with David and a small team from Basileia. This past week my parents sailed in from Abbotsford, Canada. I met them in San Diego for a couple days where we visited with family/friends and took in a day at SeaWorld! Funfun... we headed back up to LA this past friday and spent the wknd. transforming my patio -literally! It went from one big cement block to a really nice little area, bistro patio table and chairs included (an early birthday present). It is so nice now ... breakfast on the patio takes on a whole new meaning! Thanks mom and dad -you guys seriously rock! (PS. as soon as mom sends me some of the pictures -I will post them up here on the blog for you all to see-cause I know most of you have not seen my place)

Last night, we celebrated mom and dad's 40th anniversary at an amazing steakhouse called 'Houstons' in Pasadena. Hard to believe 40 years wow ... perhaps I am not the only one but, my parents have been frozen in time a few years back so, to think "40 years" yikes reminds me firstly that I am getting older ...which funny enough -I have myself freeze framed a few years back to 20 something! hahaha ... is that always what happens? Though it also causes me to think WOW- 40 years to be married to the same person and actually enjoy being married to the same person is such a beautiful testimony to this sacred covenant! My brother Kevin and I have been priviledged to be raised in a godly family where stability and the word 'divorce' was never an option! I pray that one day I too will model this type of covenant. What a blessing!

Tonight we had dinner with David and Anita -which was a highlight for my parents to meet and get to know 2 very dear friends who I have partnered with down here and now we are home and they are busy packing to begin their next leg of the final part of this journey. The amtrack train first thing tomorrow morning! One thing I have to say is that our family sure knows how to do holidays up right! Perhaps this is where my travelling bug was birthed...:)

Tomorrow will be regroup/cleaning/laundry day and then Tuesday AM I have 3 friends coming in from Canada who are dancing on our next live recording and DVD project upcoming next month. We are taking this week as a creative prep/ground laying and breaking for our community here. Should be a very FULL and yet FUN week! Can hardly wait to see more fellow Canadian friends.

Gotta jet ...time to load up some luggage into my car.
love to you all. peaceout a town!

So so Difficult ...

2006-03-25T23:39:00.000-08:00

Thank you all for your prayers ... the young girl whom Anita and I started the detox process with the beginning of this past week has slipped once again over the last 48 hours. So sad. The family wedding she was supposed to go to -she didn't end up going and her family completely freaked out -needless to say many verbal exchanges back and forth, accusations and definitely no understanding. The sad thing is that they are really in the dark as to this girls pain and secrecy. The life of a victim -living in private pain that only she and a handful know, particularly when the abuse has been coming from the inside, a place where all children should be safe.

It never ceases to amaze me that whether all the information is known or not how selfish we are as human beings and cannot respect or even try to understand that perhaps not everything can happen the way that we see it happening or deem it best.

If only there could have been a little grace in the midst of the conversation, a tiny bit of understanding. That yes, it is a disappointment she decided to not be at the wedding but, perhaps the world is so much bigger than just our piece, desires and or wants. Perhaps, we could let go of our own things to just believe that maybe there is something at work in the bigger scheme. That even tho' you cannot always get your way and it doesn't always logically make sense -that is ok. Cause perhaps - it is not even supposed to be about you! So many things in life are not just about logic and reason. Remember your reason and logic can be totally different from someone else's perspective.

Anyway, enough of that rant. I understand the family's view and yet I so understand this young girls perspective. It actually is an issue of justice now which we are praying and trying to decide at what point do we as her pastors need to step in and bring clarity to the bigger picture. So, these hurtful accusations and words will stop. We are so damaging with our talk about one another. It scares me.

This girl has now been once again devastated by accusations, assumptions, statements of "love wasted on her" all her life. Which has now led her to the last 2 days back into the lifestyle she was so desperately trying to leave behind. Why are we so quick to judge, criticize!

Oh God, please I don't want to be that way! I really want to learn to listen better - selflessly. Not just with my ears but, with my heart. A heart longing to understand the deeper workings of the person who has my attention and also Your Spirit Lord who is at work consistently and constant.

She is not lost. No matter how many times one goes down -there is always a way up! Please Pray that the Lord would be so near to her that she would run and stay in His safe arms. Pray for us -wisdom...wisdom.

Day Three Down

2006-03-22T12:45:00.000-08:00

A Great Beginning.

Well, we finished Day 3 of the detox ... or perhaps I should say Night 3! Since Sunday Night Anita (Ruis) and I have been detoxing a 21 year old cocaine, pills, pot and alcohol addict. oh and who is also 6 weeks pregnant. This is a young lady who has really been a victim of many abuses right from a young girl. She is a survivor and like all of us has her ways of coping. Unfortunately, her way has been with highly damaging addictive substances.

She is such a trooper and tho' many a time wanted to run ... she stuck it out and we are seeing a sober, chemical free beautiful girl. Last night went well, for our third night crashed out in my living room. She started falling asleep right around 10PM and actually slept through most of the night -which was awesome! It also meant that Anita and I could get some zzz... She had a "spell" around 4am at which time we pulled ourselves around her in a sleep/semi-cognitive state and just started praying ... the first 2 nights were all about this ... the third night we has some respite. This spell didn't last long this time and so stumbling back to sleep for a bit was awoken around 6am -with a very "awake" and alert young lady.

Definitely way more than I was that is for sure!!!

We had some great conversations over the last 3 days, good fun, fun laughs ... loads and loads of prayer ... and we can she that she has walked through her first steps of real and TRUE LIFE! She is going away this wknd. and wanted a night in her own home before she goes away...that is ok -cause I already had flushed the marijuana down the toilet. This is the testing part now for her to see how she does with her first few days of sobriety. She says that she doesn't want a repeat of the 3 days she has just gone through so, hoping that near reality will stay fresh in her mind. She is still needing to make some very important decisions when it comes to her and the Lord which will obviously affect all of her surroundings, relationships, influences, etc. This is really where we are pointing ... She still needs much prayer. and honestly right now -I am looking forward to a good nights sleep tonight.

Again, what a fantastic beginning!

Day Two Down

2006-03-21T13:13:00.000-08:00

Beginning Day Three.

It was a definite time of warfare last night. We really saw and felt the tangible presence and protection of the Lord. Tho' the wrestling was waaay more intense we all made it through. physically exhausted and yet filled with hope.

Our new friend, this young lady who we are walking through this detoxing process is literally in the midst of making life changing decisions ... to choose HIM ... or not to. This is what will make this process different than anytime she has ever tried to get sober and addiction free.

Today is a crucial day for her. The enemy is really pulling hard at her through a variety of "pulls". Please pray for her. Pray for us. Looks like we might need to do somewhat of an 'intervention' at the end of her work day. Really it is amazing that she even went to work today and yet, I am also thankful just to have a few hours of rest before we begin again with her tonight.

Thank you all for your prayers ... this girl is so precious to the Lord -the fight is great over her life but, again and again we keep praying and speaking "You are not alone!" "You are Loved!" "You are KNOWN!"

May your hearts be encouraged and full today with the beauty, peace and love of our Father!

.:sheri:.

Please Pray!

2006-03-20T12:55:00.000-08:00

After the GIG yesterday ... a young girl (name witheld) who has been coming occasionally to Basileia was requesting prayer in response to the message and just the overall dynamic of what was happening in the room all day yesterday (it was very 'sweet'). ...This girl has not been sober for 6 years. She is addicted to Cocaine, Alcohol, Marijuana and Pills.

Later on that day after much prayer by a few of us -the girl called Anita later on and said that she wanted to detox off everything. Just found out that she is pregnant (approx. 6 weeks) So, after I came home from Anaheim Vineyard last night (Brian Doerksen was there) I immediately went over to the Ruis' and Anita/I have begun to take this girl through a detox process. Which meant anita and I took shifts all night -basically stayed up all night and with alot of prayer, conversation, tea we watched/waited and interceded on behalf of this girl as she lay on the couch in front of us beginning her detox. The Spirit of the Lord was really strong in the room and we definately could feel his tangible help in the process. This girl actually slept for a few hours in the middle of the night/early morning as PEACE was being prayed over her! She had not slept for 5 days before last night. She actually made it to work this morning which gave anita and I a few hours of respite and rest. Until 4:30pm we will be meeting again and this time will happen at my house. Round 2 begins tonight here at my place ...another all nighter of watching...interceeding...

PLEASE PRAY with us. Anita and I are both exhausted but, excited as to what the Lord has started here ..there really is a sweet spirit around this girl even in the midst of so much brokenness and addiction. This girl is only 21 -and yet has experienced a life that no 21 year old should experience, let alone a mature adult.

Please particularly pray for us tonight. This could be a more difficult night. Pray that His Peace would fill my home and supernaturally touch this young girl. Pray for freedom for her and strength for Anita and I! Pray! Pray! Pray!

Thanks friends and family!!!
sheri

Preparing...

2006-03-18T20:29:00.000-08:00

to PREACH up a storm for tommorow at "The GIG". I am excited and also praying and hoping that the Lord meets us all with authority and power! Thanks for all your prayers ... Here is the text I am speaking from

Mark 12:29-34

as Martin Luther once said "Until a man [woman] is nothing, God can make nothing out of him [her]."

Blessed.:sheri:.

Personality Test

2006-03-12T12:08:00.000-08:00

Hahahaa... I don't know if this is a good thing or bad thing? Nevertheless...for those of you who "dig" personality tests check it out. They give you a bunch of other stuff around it to-interesting.

ENFJ - "Persuader". Outstanding leader of groups. Can be aggressive at helping others to be the best that they can be. 2.5% of total population.

Take Free Jung Personality Test
personality tests by similarminds.com

Date Change

2006-03-12T11:15:00.000-08:00

Well ... for those who care and/or to whom this effects ... we have decided to change the date of our "Live Recording Project" to April 20+21st. So, if anyone wants to take a road trip down to southern california -you have a bit more time to make a plan! Winkwink...that is for you chad+janna ... katie? We felt that the extra couple of weeks would give us more time to do what we want to do from a production standpoint AND of course it means that we will be able to do this in our newly leased 5000 square foot LOFT SPACE!!! Yahhoooo....

Dr.Phil Update-for those who tuned in ... looks like the only one who made a 15 second cameo appearance was Anita Ruis herself (did you catch it yvonne?)

WE HAD SNOW here yesterday! Yes, that is completely true ...in fact a midget size snowman was sitting outside on the lawn yesterday till late last night. People were running outside taking pictures and making road trips from all over LA to come to Tujunga to see the snow! HA!!!! Just a little bit of 'Canadian' for me -yeah. It is darn cold and I even had to turn on my furnace full tilt all day yesterday. Today, it just looks like a typical Vancouver winter day. Grey, chilly, almost about to rain with the sun peaking through every now and then.

Thursday Night a friend and I were heading over to a place called the "Velvet Margarita" just off Sunset/Hollywood Blvd. It was a friends graduation party from Massage Therapy School so,,, we were going to celebrate with him! Anyway ... as we were driving everywhere to find a parking spot -all there was was valet parking everywhere. This is a big LA thing -wierd I am still not totally used to it ... I drove into a parking lot to see how much it was and this guy approached my window whom I asked "how much was parking"? and he replied $10. Something went off internally for me and my friend but, you are thinking I am in a parking lot there was another parking attendant watching as this was all unfolding ... we hummed -while trying to decide if we wanted to park there and the guy kept repeating $10 getting a little more aggressive. (which can be common for here) so, finally my friend leaned over and gave a $20. which i replied by saying we needed change and he totally ignored me just asking for a lighter (like 3 times) at this point the other parking attendant is saying something but, not coming over all of a sudden this guy just takes off running. My friend jumps out of the car ..yelling at the guy running and I'm yelling at the parking guy who just stood there and did not do anything so, we take off driving to find this guy ...and as if what are we going to do if we did find him>>we hadn't got to that part yet. We finally find a parking spot and thought we had spotted him down a side street but, no way could've caught him. Nevertheless, in the midst of being robbed/conned we had a laugh and thought just a typical Hollywood Blvd. day.

PS> The Velvet Margarita was VERY COOL! 70's red velvet wallpaper everywhere with a trashy mexican spin to it. The vibe was amazing! All you local LA'ers who read my blog -you should check it out sometime!

BTW - Heaps of Thanks to you all who actually comment on my blog ... I love it! Totally encouraging ... You Rock!

Today is our second leadership session day -should be fun! I'm off. overandout.

Exciting Update!

2006-03-06T15:45:00.000-08:00

WE HAVE A SPACE!!! That is correct ... as the Basileia Community (pronounced : bah sah lay ah)(www.basileiacommunity.com) We just signed the lease for a 5000 square foot loft here in Los Angeles!! And we got such a sweet deal with it - like an earthshattering -rarely heard of deal on this space! Completely the Lord! Along with the space we received a full house of furniture ... bistro bar and all the trimmings, etc....

So, CELEBRATIONS are in order for all of us down here and all of you my friends and family who keep track with my life and happenin's!

The first way that we will be celebrating is with David's (Ruis) brand new LIVE Recording Project that we will be doing in "THE LOFT" on March 30+31st. Come one -come all ... great time for a visit! hinthint ... The recording will come with Media and the whole lot! As you can imagine I have a whole heap of work in front of me in the next few weeks.

Appreciate all your prayers! The anti is up not just in task but, also huge warfare along with it all ... Let me also add if any of you, my Avalanche or Downpour Homies out there who feel like coming on down to help .... hey - that would be fantastic! Pray about it! It is going to be a blast!!!

So, as you see ... it has been a swirl ... but, I like it that way! On top of this we have begun our leadership track with our core group of 30 -absolutely amazing!

It's all shakin' and ahappenin' -peace

**For those of you who are interested - the Dr.Phil Show that I am in the audience on airs tommorow (tuesday)! the theme is: Bi Polar Disorder. Check your local listings for the time. funfun

Update

2006-02-27T23:14:00.000-08:00

Had a great night last night with our initial core group from Basileia. We had 29 of our "identified" core leadership group and have started a strategic leadership development process-that will be taking place over the next 3 months.

Had some worship/prayer/teaching and of course our usual hang/party/social time. It was fantastic! As you looked around the room ...realized that the room was full of very amazing/talented men and women. What a priviledge. It was really exciting and a sense that "the next step" is beginning to unfold.

Tommorow we go into our first rehearsal in preparation for a live recording project that will be happening at the end of the month. It is really exciting! SO, most of the day will be spent in a studio figuring out songs, details, etc... Met with the guys today (again-what a talented group of guys and so full of character) it just felt so rich! Amazing!! Lots of details to unfold ... my role with this particular "hat" (thought to self-I should do a blog regarding "hats") is in more of the management/detail end of things so, I most definately have a whole whack load of work in front of me here to pull together in literally one month. This of course is on top of all the "usual Basileia stuff".

The weeks have definately jumped up a few notches in regards to task and the blend of relationship. It's good. I like pressure. I seem to thrive better in those kind of environments.

Things are on the move ... let me end this post today with somewhat of a clarifier ...

Clarifier: To anyone who perhaps is unfamiliar with the world of "blogging". (I realize that most of you who actually read my blogs are aware of the concept of blogging). However, there are a few who perhaps this is a new concept to. Blogging, really is a way to express musings, heart, thoughts, rants, current realities. It is not meant necessarily to be a day to day calendar of events/or in this case "ministry log". Though sometimes might look that way (like my post today) it is more of a heart connect than a day to day organizer. For my friends and family who are looking for more "tangible" what the world is sheri up to questions ... please feel free to email or call me directly. I would be happy to pop out personal communications.

The "Larger Story"

2006-02-24T11:14:00.000-08:00

I read today ...that only in remembering that our lives are being written into a larger story can we take the mundane things that keep coming, minute by minute.

The meta narrative (the 'larger story') of my life ... the meta narrative of your life. The small is important and yet the bigger picture-larger story is that which keeps us focused through the small.

Interesting how many times in life we revolve our thoughts, energy, time, emotion -really our 'lives' around the small things convinced that they truly are the BIG things.

Easy how our perspectives can run askewed. I believe it happens for many reasons and yet I am reminded today again of this very important truth.

May the Larger Story be my focus and yes, it will give me the energy to wade through even the drama of the mundane. No matter how strong the immediacy of the emotion and need - the wider focus/big picture-larger story will help me stay grounded and focused to that which the day to day offers.

A very important life value ...

So, on a lighter note (no pun intended:) - off to the gym I go ... a whole lot of the mundane and yet most definately somewhat of the larger story!

Happy Weekend

This is such a great thought ...

2006-02-23T00:13:00.000-08:00

Thanks to Henri Nouwen!

True Intimacy

Human relationships easily become possessive. Our hearts so much desire to be loved that we are inclined to cling to the person who offers us love, affection, friendship, care, or support. Once we have seen or felt a hint of love, we want more of it. That explains why lovers so often bicker with each other. Lovers' quarrels are quarrels between people who want more of each other than they are able or willing to give.

It is very hard for love not to become possessive because our hearts look for perfect love and no human being is capable of that. Only God can offer perfect love. Therefore, the art of loving includes the art of giving one another space. When we invade one another's space and do not allow the other to be his or her own free person, we cause great suffering in our relationships. But when we give another space to move and share our gifts, true intimacy becomes possible.

Adventure ...

2006-02-20T18:02:00.000-08:00

oh what a word with many a different definition depending on the person, season and or perhaps the time of day.

I have always considered myself to be a very adventurous person.
Nothing was too big of a challenge.
My parents always raised my brother and I to understand and know that we could get anything we put our mind to. That obstacles were the things that made us stronger to face the realities of growing up and encountering all that life has - face on. Individual dreams were the things that inspired and pulled to the gifts and calling of the individual self.

Even as a young girl, I was always tenatious sometimes to my detriment and yet always a lesson never went unlearned. Good, the bad and at times the ugly with appropriate consequences. Yet, I would never trade any of my experiences because I believe that strong character was being developed in the midst of it all.

The ability to make a decision. To have an opinion - a voice.

Funny enough, the hardest decisions I find to be made on a weekly basis are usually menu choices when going out for dinner and life decisions seem to be fairly clear and generally pointed obvious.

However, the word "adventure" these days seem to take on a new definition.

Since moving to LA I feel in some ways that my boldness and fierce "take the bull by the horns" has nearly depleted. My dreams and vision in many ways feel like a distant movie that I replay in my mind to almost cheer myself on ... "you can do it sheri, you can do it".

LA is a place of survival.

Survival seems to bleed into many places of my heart as of late.

Hmmm.... a very wise woman and good friend of mine once said to me that I had a strong gift to survive that I easily can move compartamentally from place to part in my life. I didn't always see that as a strength and yet, she made it clear to me one day long ago that it actually is a piece of how the Lord made me to be able to juggle different feelings, scenarios and dynamics all at the same time. Most times, I just want it all to bleed together fluidly - cause it usually feels that way internally.

For those of you who have seen the movie "Crash" it is a very accurate picture of this place that I now call home.

Survival

I definately want more than survival - I want to thrive!

"Adventure" these days has been about taking a step out and initiating a call or coffee with someone whom I don't know. Sometimes adventure has been about discovering a new freeway, a new "spot", some days it has just been about getting out of my house to go for a walk.

This word has taken on a whole new meaning to me and the scary thing about it is it hasn't felt very brave. Usually I, the risk taker will do something totally "out there" not caring what anyone thinks.

I allow the risk to define adventure with feeling flowing in step and yet, it seems like I have lost some of that ...

I love the feeling of endorphines and a little bit of fear to be close at hand. To feel out of control. Even bigger than that to know that I am just jumping with everything and all - knowing HE really will catch me and I am not alone cause HE is with me! What a great feeling! Because I usually push into it deeper, further and harder. However, lately I have been running away from it. It all feels very raw and in some ways scary.

I want to be brave again. I don't want vision and my dreams to be just a "I remember when story" ... I want it to be pulsing through my veins in the 'now' moment. I really want more brave days!

A PICTURE of me
I am a little girl in a massive mall who is totally lost. Looking frantically for the one who has brought her to this place. The mall usually is a familiar place of fun and frolic and yet now that she is abandoned it is a scary place ... lonely. It feels really big and completely unknown. Where is this one who has brought me to this place?? Why would he just leave me here? Why has this happened to me? Just moments ago it was normal and ok. The window dressings and attractions around me are no consolation and hold nothing for me like they usually do when I feel safe. I am running up and down the corridors -nothing feels familiar - as soon as I find him I will grab hold of his hand -I will be safe again to walk leisurely through this place that I have been brought to and experience all it has to offer.

This feels like a very vulnerable post for me and perhaps it is not so much about the words you are reading but, the weight in my heart right now that is propelling me to write this.

The good news for me in all of this is that ... Today has been a BRAVE DAY!

Here's to what tommorow holds ...

Yesterday

2006-02-17T13:54:00.000-08:00

We hit up the Dr. Phil show! woohoo ... it was a fun morning! Despite the fact that I turned my alarm off at 5:45am and rolled over. Next awaking at 6:30am which was when I was supposed to be picking anita up to head down to the show! Yikes... only National TV! Hopefully, those sleep lines and puffy eyes didn't show up too much!!! winkwink. Can you say 5 minute makeup treatment!

It was a cool experience ... for any of you who do watch that program ...they didn't give us an exact airtime date other than sometime in the next month. But, the particular show we are in the audience on is the topic "Bipolar Disorder". Yes, of course one of those light topics in celebration of Anita's Birthday! hahaha sarcasm So, after the taping we went out to a great THAI restaurant (thanks to Rache:) in Larchmont. I am slowly learning all the cool places in LA for all you visitors ... well, at least the restaurants anyway! lol...

Spent Tuesday/Wednesday with the Quincey's. Had a really fun time! Love those guys and it was so cool to really connect with Caton and Kesa (of course at a much older age than when I used to hold them in my arms). Man, time flies and of course we as adults all look the same it is just in the children you see time rolling on by... scary!

That's it for now. Makin' it short and sweet
Happy President's wknd! HAHAHAHAHA ... whatever that is other than a monday off.

Ciao

A Good Day!

2006-02-14T22:18:00.000-08:00

::HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!::

Had a fun day today with the Quincey's! That's right ... Wendell, Maureen, Caton and Kesa! Wendell and I used to direct LifeForce Teams together after Phil Collins left and before Lindsay Hodges. ohhhh.... the days.... the good ole' days....

Went to Universal Studios today and had a great time! Tommorow is the Hollywood excursion -Hitting Melrose, Hollywood and Santa Monica.

So Refreshing!

In reflection of Valentines Day ...

"A truly perfect relationship is one in which each party leaves great tracts unknown in the other party." -D.H. Lawrence (1885-1930) English Writer

A Special Day ...

2006-02-13T12:20:00.000-08:00

For My Extra Special DAD!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

Remember age is only but a number;)

Dad you are a hero to me in every true definition of the word. Your kindness, stability, strength, wisdom and love has guided me throughout the years. You know what it means to love unconditionally and always fight for the best and the right! Not just a good road but, the higher road!

In a world where we do not see many healthy role models of a father I can say that you far supersede anything that I could have hoped for or asked. You are such a beautiful caring person and tho' everyone may not understand your quietness and dry sense of humour - I can say it has been a solace and comfort many a time.

You are one who in a calm, timely manner and yet in strength will speak what you think. You do not carry pretense. You are and bring to the world what you say you are ... How refreshing!

You are true to your self and therefore true to all those who you meet.

Thanks for loving me
Thank you for being YOU
Thanks for providing such a stable, loving home
Thanks for believing in me always and knowing that I could do and be anything that I put my mind and heart to! You have given me confidence!
Thank you for sharing your life so generously

I love you with all my heart and am proud to say that YOU ARE MY FATHER!

Here's to at least another 30 fun years!!

all my love xo
.sheri.

And This Is How I have Been Feeling ...

2006-02-12T00:18:00.000-08:00

The following quotes from the authors below say it perfectly.

And what is laughter anyway?
Changing the angle of vision.
That is what you love a friend for:
the ability to change your angle of vision,
bring back your best self when you feel worst,
remind you of your strengths when you feel weak.
-Erica Jong (b. 1942) American Poet and Writer

Friendship is
certainly the finest balm
for the pangs
of disappointed love.
-Jane Austen (1775-1817) English Writer

It seems to me that trying
to live without friends is
like milking a bear to get cream
for your morning coffee.
It is a whole lot of trouble,
and then not worth
much after you get it.
-Zora Neale Hurston (1903-1960) American Writer

I realize ...

2006-02-07T17:11:00.000-08:00

It is about time to write a new post.

It has been fairly busy and there is always that pull to only blog when there is some inspiring revelation or profound thought to be discussed. The activities of the day don't seem to be that exciting but, perhaps for some of you (like my beautiful mom) you appreciate hearing the day to days of the schedule and routine.

Right off the top I have to say my days are not filled with much routine - which is usually the way I like it and yet the routine things that are valuable and life giving I do embrace.

So, this post is especially for you mom

Friday Night (3rd) - I went to this amazing Cuban restaurant with some good friends here and picked up my Christmas Present from my parents! A fancy BBQ!!! I have never owned anything like this and it is a little scary to think that this really excites me in this way. An adult toy for sure!! I look forward to summer BBQ/Patio/Pool Parties ... woohoo ....

Here's a shout out to you Doug, Rache and of course my mom and dad!

Saturday (4th) - Most of the 'In Touches' (aka: Basielia prayer/worship/social gatherings) usually happen at my pad. So, after a couple hours of cleaning my place a crew of Basileia posse came over and we spent a few hours together enjoying one another and the presence of the Lord together. So, with the setup of my brand new amazing BBQ - Yes, that's right 4 men were working on it ... a single girls dream! HAHAHAH ... Then again, 3 of them are married and the 4th is a 13 year old. Ah yah ... enough said.

Later on that evening, a small group of us went out for dinner to one of our favorite restaurant haunts called Don Cucos! Fabulous mexican cuisine! For those of you who come and visit - I will for sure take you here. The Don Cucos staff knows me by name;)

Sunday (5th) - Was SUPERBOWL Sunday where there was a huge party at the Ruis' pad ... We at Basileia love to spend as much time as possible with one another ... we love to party and have fun! So, right after going to the gym and running 6 miles - I crashed the party!!! Somewhat exhausted I might add.

Monday (6th) - David and I left first thing in the morning to pick up a good friend in Ventura. Andy Freeman, from England who is a key leader with the 24-7 Prayer movement. It was a day spent with food, coffee, waaaaayyyy too much LA and area driving, airport action and stimulating conversation! Had an hour to chill went to the gym and ran 5 miles -then hooked up with Tamara and friend where we hit up a fantastic Sushi Place in Burbank. mmmm.....sushi .... yummiiiii... i love sushi!!

Here is a shout out to John Janzen - a friend from the Winnipeg era and who is now living in Japan with his fam! Remember John when you and I went out for sushi after our crazy census taking experiences and you first introduced me to EEL! I will never forget!!

TODAY! Tuesday (7th) - A good day at that ... Bailey who is my constant alarm clock. Seriously, I never have to set my alarm unless it is before 8AM. Bailey is up and ready to "do his business" by 8AM, 8:30 if he is sleeping in. Honestly, sometimes when I actually want to sleep in ... Let's just say I don't welcome my furry white alarm!

So ... got up, worked on some itinerant/basileia detail computer work. Took Bailey for an actual 'walk' and then headed over to the Ruis' to spend a few hours working on designing our basileia leadership track with David which we will be starting the end of this month. I have lots of prep work in front of me but, really excited about this! We have about 25 Basileian's who are committing to 6 sessions of 4 hours who will be walking through leadership development with David/Anita and I. This is foundational to the establishment of our core. So, exciting!

Then around 3pm went to the gym and ran 6 miles just under 56 minutes.
BTW - picked up a new pair of addidas runners at Lady Footlocker for $21!
Thank you Jesus...funny, how He knows and provides right when we really do need something -even in the little things. I knew that I could not afford expensive shoes at this point and was really praying that I could find something reasonable and bang -last week struck gold! woohoo...

Got home, worked on catching up on some emails and in about 20 minutes heading over to pick up anita - we are going to see the movie "Pride and Prejudice"...ooooooo.... I can hardly wait. A completely spontaneous last minute decision! I have been dieing to see this movie! Romance at it's finest!!

So, as I finish this post with a nice coffee in hand - ok, maybe not in hand cause that would be hard to type but, right in front of me ...with the occasional sip/type/sip/type breaks ...

I say goodnight to all my fine family and constant friends who I love dearly, whom I think of often and miss always ...

Mr. Darcy is calling my name!

Goodnight

.:sheri:.

I PASSED!

2006-02-01T18:16:00.000-08:00

Yeah ... woohoo ... I now officially have a California's Drivers License!!
Well, when it comes in the mail in 2 weeks.

I did it I passed the road test this afternoon - thank you to all who prayed!

Freakin' intimidating I tell ya'! My tester was from a different DMV and a new guy so, the flippin' supervisor came along also...yikes...

I did well except he said that my residential speed was a little fast honestly, I think that he was looking at the KM's not the miles that are miniscule on the dashboard.... hahaha ...I was even trying to watch my speed!!

No matter - all that does matter is that I PASSED!

Yeah ... Soon, I will be sporting Cali-for-n-i-a Plates!

Ramblings

2006-01-31T22:55:00.000-08:00

HEY friends ... Well, I just got home from the gym and I am extremely exhausted! Of course I had to add the grocery shopping into my evening excursion - which is a minor workout in itself lugging big water jugs from my car to my apartment! ugh ... i don't drink the water from the tap unless it is boiled ...it tastes too wierd. I have been spoiled by fine Calgary water!

Let's see where to begin ... Well, I am now up to running 6 miles a day in a time of just under 56 minutes. I have no clue if that is good or not -but, let me tell yah when i stop I have sweat almost down to my belly button! not a pretty sight!! Feeling physically exhausted is actually a liberating thing! I don't think that I would ever say that cause I hate sweating but, there is something about those endorphines kicking in that feel really good! Why then is it so flippin' hard to get the butt off the couch?? Ohh well ... I am doing well at this and at the YMCA 5-6 days out of the week!! Hoorah ... Hurray ... I would say this is pretty close to a miracle;) haha... lol

I saw the movie today "End of the Spear". Oh my gosh -total tear jerker ...that is if you are a type of person (like myself) who just throws yourself right into the middle of the story. It is a beautiful "true story" of 5 missionaries in the 50's who were killed as they were reaching out to a tribe in Ecuador who were on the brink of extinction. The story is told from the sons perspective of one of the men who were martyred (not Jim Elliot's son) and then the journey of the tribe from then on -the healing and salvation that has taken place. It is so incredible ... very inspiring. From a production perspective - (my personal opinion only) felt that the music was a throw back to cheesy christian music and I semi expected Kirk Cameron to come walking onto the set at some point. Most of you will understand that comment;) I found elements of it cheesy and if I was not so drawn to the actual content of the story and the meaning in it - I probably would not have liked it. So, there you have it -move over roger and ebert (oh wait one of them isn't around anymore-oops) sheri mcconnell is on the set! HA HAHAHA ....
**I do recommend you see it!

Tommorow is my California Drivers Road Test - 2PM - Pacific Time! Yikes... All my 16 year old fears are on the surface ...please pray!!!

Feb. 16th - I am going to a live taping of the Dr. Phil show with a couple friends! HA! Should be fun - looking forward to it!

Basileia is doing well. It is cool cause there definately is a core group that is emerging and forming. This past sunday we were at "The GIG" - the nightclub in the heart of Hollywood for our once a month gathering. It was absolutely amazing!! It never ceases to amaze me all the new people that end up showing up ... and hearing about it from who knows? our weekly gatherings are in homes and we have had a couple different ones in the last week and they have been really focused on prayer and seeking the Lord for our "Hub-Location". We are just finding it difficult doing everything out of our homes especially in the LA area where there are 3 counties, over 100 cities and approximately 17 million people that I live right in the middle of. It takes many people over an hour just to get to things and that is on a good freeway day! Appreciate your prayers as we seek Him as to where He really wants us to establish ourselves ... We are beginning Feb. 12th our first round of leadership development teaching and training over a 3 month period with a group of about 20. Really looking forward to this ... there is quite a bit of prep to pull together for it but, excited about the times that we will be able to spend building a deeper heart connect with our emerging core.

Well, I think that is it for now ... I am exhausted and need to get some zzzz...
I will be back in touch soon!

Heaps of love and fun stuff all over you ... Keep it real!

.:sheri:.

From my Journal ...

2006-01-29T21:31:00.000-08:00

The feelings of my heart as of late.

I drink from the complexities of life and find it's flavour sweet and mysterious.

Sometimes burning my tongue yet filling me with shivers of delight.

Restlessly bubbling inside of me it is a myriad of tastes not one standing out alone.

Aromas of happiness, sadness, peace, doubt and faith.

Refresh me - Revive me - and urge me to try again.

Take another sip.

Tommorow.

Dance

2006-01-27T19:04:00.000-08:00

Here taken by my good friend Scott Francis, a picture from Street Invaders this past summer. A youth discipleship program that I was directing. Alexandra -I love you- you so rock!

A huge shout out to all my Street Invaders posse - love you all and miss you!

Drivers Exam Update ...

2006-01-26T18:09:00.001-08:00

Yeah ... I passed! The written exam anyway. I had 3 mistakes, which were quite humourous... a question on the blood alcohol limit, some bizarre question regarding a tanker truck at a railway crossing and the third being one on carrying livestock. hahhaaa! So, now my actual DRIVING EXAM is 2pm on February 1st. Yikes!

I guess I better make sure that I don't have a glass of wine before I take the test ... run into some truck carrying livestock or encounter a tanker truck on a railway crossing! HA! ok...perhaps a lame joke;)

Nevertheless, soon enough I will be displaying Cali-for-ni-a plates.

Drivers Test!

2006-01-26T08:52:00.000-08:00

Yes, well ... it is THE DAY! All of my 16 year old "driving" fears are coming back to haunt me.

Unfortunately when one moves from Canada to the USofA, you cannot just transfer your licensing over but must take a written exam and then an actual driving exam!

It is so crazy here ...the licensing process. Everything is independant which means the insurance to the registration to the licensing are all like 50 steps to get them done. Seriously, another one of those lets wait in line for 5 hours kinda thing.

So, today is my written exam and then when I pass, my appointment for the driving exam will happen. All this to say PLEASE PRAY! The miles thing really has not sit with me yet. HA! Needless, to say that is what I will be doing all morning reading through this blinkin' drivers manual!

On another note: I just have to give a shout out to the fact that I have passed a small and yet at the same time huge milestone!

5 MILES baby! That is right ... I am back on track and yesterday accomplished a 5 miles run in 50 minutes. I have no clue if that is a good time or not? But, feeling really good physically and each day my endurance is increasing! Yeah ...

The first couple months were really difficult to get into any sort of routines health wise because half of it was spent travelling in Canada and just with the transitions and not knowing this area well, I didn't know what that was going to look like however, now I am on track and feeling great that way!

This week has been a mixture for me with some good in it. I will speak to the good. Tuesday night met a friend from England at the airport. Took him out for dinner ...it was really cool to catch up -tho' very brief as he was on his way to Calgary the next day and a special treat he did bring! 2 massive bars of Galaxy Chocolate! Excitement! Perhaps I can eat them while I am running ... HA!! Bad joke;)

Monday night and last night (wednesday) we had 2 important prayer meetings focusing towards really "hearing" the Lord together and seeking him on behalh of "a hub" for Basileia. Great prayer times together and really seeing a core develop. Also, looking forward to Tim/Diane Larose from the Loops who are coming down this week and I think coming to the GIG this Sunday. Can hardly wait to see them!!

Last week a bunch of us went to Life Pacific College in San Dimas, CA. (a four square school) David and band did a blow out night of worship - it was flippin' amazing! The Lord came powerfully!!! It made me miss all my FGBC friends ... you guys would seriously love the look of this campus - really sweet!

February we start our Leadership Development track that David and I will be leading the teaching in for a group here of about 25. Really looking forward to it and have been working on pulling all this stuff together.

Well, I know that this post has been somewhat random. Just alot of stuff that has been swirling around in my mind this morning.

For those that read this today - if you could send up a prayer ... 3:20pm is my appointment for the drivers test! ACK!

I will keep you posted:)

Peaceout!
.:sheri:.

I was thinkin' this morning ...

2006-01-23T00:16:00.000-08:00

about some very random 'sheri' things...

My Favorite Color - RED
My Favorite Band - U2 past-present and pretty much most 80's music
One of my favorite smells - clean bedding fresh out of the hot dryer
My favorite parfume - Angel and Dolce Gabanna
My favorite season - Fall
My favorite sounds - The Ocean and the sound of rain
My favorite food(s) - Good Coffee/Ice Cream/Red Wine
One of my dreams - To grow old with someone
My favorite flowers - White Roses/Calla Lilies and White Daisies
Favorite Movie - Immortal Beloved (watch it:)
Historical Characters that I admire (in no particular order) - Joan of Arc/Martin Luther King Jr./Dietrich Bonhoeffer/Mother Theresa/Evita/St. Francis of Assisi/Jesus Christ and His Disciples/Bono
One of my favorite authors - Henri Nouwen
Pop culture Icons - Wonder Woman/Bionic Woman
Favorite Animal - Dolphin
Favorite Animal I love - Bailey (of course;)
Favorite Place I have traveled - Nepal/UK/French Riveria
Favorite Childhood literature - The Chronicles of Narnia/Nancy Drew Mystery Series
Favorite Childhood Music - ABBA
Favorite Childhood Memory - Travelling Europe with my family when I was 16 (2 months - 7 countries)
Favorite Chocolate - Galaxy/Purdy's Peanut Butter bars
My favorite past times - afternoon movies/shopping/art
galleries/museums/theatre/mosaic art work/reading/listening to live music/going out for dinner with friends/exploring new places ...
My favorite Painting -'The Lady of Shalot'
Favorite Worship Song - 'Faithful' (David Ruis)
Favorite Scripture - all of it!
Favorite Instrument - Violin
My favorite people - my family and ALL my precious close friends (you know who you are:o)

Thanks

2006-01-17T23:34:00.000-08:00

for all your prayers friends! Bailey is back up to his spunky speed...yeah!!
The fight goes on

sheri

Prayer ...

2006-01-14T20:08:00.000-08:00

HI Everyone ... OK, this perhaps might sound like a wierd post for some of you but, I am calling out to all of you who believe in and are standing with me in prayer whether far away or near. It has to do with Bailey - my little Bichon Frise "baby". He is almost like a child to me as most of you who know me well -would understand;)

Anyway, in the last 3 weeks I have had to take him into the vet on 2 separate occasions for 2 completely different situations that were totally random out of the blue costing me a lot of money, stress, lack of sleep, etc... I could go into all the sorted details but, that would take too long and for many of you probably bore you.

I would ask that you please pray!

I actually really believe that it is connected to elements of warfare that is stepping up here for me personally and my household (which includes Bailey). I don't mean that in any sort of demon chasing behind every tree thing but, I do see that the enemy loves to go for the weakest links, the helpless, people in our lives and over the last couple days as we have been walking through some "relational swirl" in the midst of life here, the warfare definately feels like it is ramping up. I am currently nursing him (Bailey) back to health from a superficial ulcer on his right eye due to an accident from a groomer yesterday. (a small piece of the "sorted details" from one of the random accounts)

Please pray for protection over myself and Bailey. Physical strength over myself along with Spiritual sight and discernment as we push into the life of the Basileia community here in Los Angeles.

You are valued, loved and missed!

sheri

The Spiritual Work of Gratitude

2006-01-12T22:58:00.000-08:00

Kinda neat inlight of my last post - this daily meditation from the Henri Nouwen Society (see below) was in my inbox this morning...

To be grateful for the good things that happen in our lives is easy, but to be grateful for all of our lives-the good as well as the bad, the moments of joy as well as the moments of sorrow, the successes as well as the failures, the rewards as well as the rejections-that requires hard spiritual work. Still, we are only truly grateful people when we can say thank you to all that has brought us to the present moment. As long as we keep dividing our lives between events and people we would like to remember and those we would rather forget, we cannot claim the fullness of our beings as a gift of God to be grateful for.

Let's not be afraid to look at everything that has brought us to where we are now and trust that we will soon see in it the guiding hand of a loving God.

It's a Good Day

2006-01-06T08:26:00.000-08:00

It's a good day ... the sun is brightly shining into my office at 8:30am it is bright, peaceful and looks like a warm day to follow.

It's a good day ... I woke up without the use of an alarm clock and the feeling of a truck rolling over my head. Perhaps that is a miracle ... lol

It's a good day ... I am about to partake on my last eggnog latte' of the season ... mmm... make it extra hot with no foam.

It's a good day ... to hit the YMCA and beat up my body ... I mean make it better with the use of the cross trainer and all sorts of gym (torturing devices) i mean toys.

It's a good day ... cause I have stayed true so far to one of my new year resolves, to do something "active" every day.

It's a good day ... cause I made it through my very first and very last cycle class the other day, and I wear it like a trophy on my behind because that is seriously what took the most beating! Oh my gosh ...it's a miracle that I didn't get hemmroids out of the 30 minutes.

It's a good day ... cause I have 2 Calgary buddies coming down here to vist me any day. A shout out to James and Stu!

It's a good day ... because the peace of the presence of the Lord is very near to me these past few days.

It's a good day ... cause I had fun yesterday with a new friend combing through the LA fashion district.

It's a good day ... cause I had a really great "tea" conversation with a good friend last night.

It's a good day ... cause I had a great phone convo with Joyska last night all the way in Kansas City!

It's a good day ... cause I just found yesterday that 2 good friends got engaged over Christmas! YEAH to Mark and Laurel!!!

It's a good day ... cause I have GALAXY chocolate dawning my house in a couple weeks! YEAH ... Andy!

It's a good day ... cause my little baby Bailey is back to his normal spunky self!

It's a good day ... cause I was able to pay my rent, telephone bill and going to pay my cable bill today.

It's a good day ... cause a long lost very dear friend contacted me this past week!

It's a good day ... cause I have a mysterious encounter tonight which will prove to be interesting -I'm sure.

It's a good day ... cause I am heading to San Marcos, CA. tommorow for a wknd. wtih friends, blowout worship and of course meeting God!

It's a good day ... cause I am healthy, loved and all my needs are taken care of!

It is the small things that make up fantastic days!!

Hope your day is great!

Rain

2006-01-01T23:36:00.000-08:00

There is something so beautiful and mysterious about the rain to me. Here I am in southern california with cold, stormy weather. Shoot I should'nt have sold that umbrella in the garage sale ... Other than what it does to my hair, I love the rain!

So often I have heard people talk about how rain makes them depressed. I never understood that really cause I love the rain! I am a very reflective individual and when I hear the rain outside my window payne it quickly takes me to those places of reflection and muse. I remember as a kid some of the best times we had as a family was camping. That's right folks despite popular opinion perhaps - I am a camper! shock and awe ... I can forgo showers, blowdryers and the sort!

Anyway, one of my favorite times in our trailer was listening to the rain as it pitter pattered across the roof of the trailer. Only but a few inches from my face (trailer bunks are small, tight spaces) and there I would lie all cozy in my sleeping bag falling asleep to the sound of rain which was always so beautiful and comforting.

...Peaceful, cleansing, washing, refreshing ...
...Moments where all the cares of my heart are silenced by the lull and rhythm of the rain.

Tonight in some strange way it is as if the Lord knew how much I have needed a rainy night. The only thing better, would be the ability to share it with someone.
One day perhaps.

The solace of melancholy is my constant companion

goodnight

Eve of 2006

2005-12-31T17:50:00.000-08:00

Hope all your New Years Eve plans have shaped up to be exciting with perhaps a mix of wild and out of the ordinary! EZ Tigers ... winkwink

I will keep you posted from my happenings tonight ... it sure isn't what last year was... oh, i miss the calgary posse right now ringing in 2005! Bizarre how so much changes so quickly.

Love to you all! You are missedxoxox
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

Christmas Morning Wifesaver

2005-12-28T12:09:00.000-08:00

mmm ...oh the delicacies of Christmas morning brunch. The "Wifesaver"! What a funny name for a recipe. Our family has celebrated with this wonderful brunch treat every Christmas Day Morning for countless years now. I have no clue how many and I am finding that there are a few of you out there also who celebrate with this delight.

Funny enough, I have never been a casserole, stroganoff, chilli, lasagna, spaghetti girl. I think that it was WAY too many years on the road travelling and encountering every traditional church potluck imagineable where all the suprises of every little granny's cupboards are thrown together to make some sort of casserole, soup or assorted combination thereof. ick...gross... Let me tell you we had some pretty scary surprises many a time which definately put me off to any of the above. To this day I have never made one of those meals.

HOWEVER, until the Christmas Morning Wifesaver ...it is a combination of eggs, ham, cheese, breadcrumbs and other tasty treats combined into a layered cake sort of lasagna pan form. As close to a casserole of sorts that I like. So yummy ... you must all now run out and find that recipe for your next festive holiday! hahaaaa:) Only question ... why is it called "Christmas Morning WifeSaver?" hhmmmm...never thought to ask my mom that. Perhaps, it is because you can prepare it all the night before and then it should be called "Christmas Eve Wife Stealer?" ok. lame joke. Nevertheless, perhaps I will find out one day when I am a wife myself and can experience the mystical "saving" of this recipe.

All this talk above to say - Christmas Day was spent at the Ruis' ... and yes, once again, the "Wifesaver" appeared! They too have adopted this tradition into their family. ahhhhahaha.... another little piece of "home" for me.

In between the Christmas Day Wifesaver and the 4pm Turkey Feast - can you say SPANDEX! Anita and I decided to head out to the streets of Tujunga with an assorted box filled with shampoos, conditioners and the remainder of the children's toys from the night before. We wanted to meet and give out Christmas gifts to some of the homeless, tent communities and friends that we would meet on the street.

As we were driving down Foothill Blvd. on the way to a trailer park I spotted out of the corner of my eye an older gentleman barefoot hobbling on his bandaged, cut open feet. You could tell that he was having difficulty walking so anita and I pulled around and approached this man seeing if he was ok. We met Robin for the first time, whose face was red and swollen, hair matted, urine stained levi's, tattered slippers in one hand and the other bracing his fragile body against the cement wall. Looked like he could not remember the last bath he had and definately the smell matched that. I started to ask him about his feet and noticed very quickly that the bandages hadn't been changed for quite some time ...his feet were stained black with yellow pussing wounds mixed with blood and other were creating such pain he was having difficulty even standing. We asked him where he was going and all he wanted was to get to the dollar store to buy a pad of lined paper for his binder. He was a writer. We carefully asked him if we could drive him to the dollar store and then back to his house so that he would not have to walk any further on his feet. He complied and so off we went ending with a painful prayer of healing and comfort with and for Robyn as we dropped him off at his adult residence.

We met a couple other people that day in Tujunga and as I got to thinking about it afterwards realized that our encounters on Christmas Day really should be no different than any other day. I have to say it felt so good to be able to step outside the normal/typical christmas celebrations - to look beyond myself and my little world to again re-sensitize myself to random 'others' around me. Interesting how we need to intentionally be looking for the opportunities to keep ourselves in the face of the outcast when our cultural norms and comforts really actually isolate us from the earthiness and rawness of such realities. Perhaps it is because our own brokenness overwhelms us most days that it makes us hard to look outward.

Really, who are the lepers of our day? The outcast? The ones who Jesus walked with, talked with, broke bread with? Are they still not all around us ... and really not that hard to find. We just have to be willing to look past the peripherie and beyond "me" to really SEE.

Father, I pray that again and again you would help me to not be so 'inward' that I miss the constant beauty of the 'outward' all around me. And that beauty can come in all shapes, sizes and yes, even smells.

Another Day to Party!

2005-12-26T22:50:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BOXING DAY to all my fellow Canadians and British Friends!! Another day to celebrate ... yeah:) and to all my american friends, no this day is not in honor of Mike Tyson ;) lol! You will just have to find either a canadian or a brit to explain what Boxing Day is about.

You all would have had a laugh to see the guys facial expression at the YMCA the other day when I asked him if they were open on "Boxing Day". I then needed to explain what the heck that was and that it had nothing to do with fighting or the latest boxing match. Just another lil' cultural difference

Hope you all had a fantastic Christmas! Only a few more days before NEW YEARS! yippeeeee

Any exciting New Years Eve plans out there?

::Christmas Eve::

2005-12-24T11:29:00.000-08:00

Hope all of your Christmas Plans have shaped up to include loads of fun, frolick and eggnog!!

Tonight I will be with some of the Basileia Crew, we are helping to host a Christmas Party for children from the Children's hospital and the Ronald McDonald house before the Narnia showing at the El Capitan -Disney's Premiere Theatre. Right down in Hollywood on Hollywood Boulevard and Highland Ave. This Theatre is amazing! Comes with props and effects from the actual movie. That's right it actually SNOWS in the theatre!!

We've been able to secure a whack of tickets and will be treating these kids to a party and a special showing of the movie. Virgin Records has sprung for the tickets, and Jimmy Kimmil's charity will be giving away toys to all the kids. There will also be some of the Los Angeles Kings on sight to be part of the festivities.

Then it will be off for dinner and am hoping to hit up a midnight mass somewhere at a Catholic Church down in Hollywood. One has to love liturgy particularly at this time of year. Perhaps it will help me get into the Christmas Spirit considering it is hot and surfing weather right now! ahhhh ... another moment of missing the good ole' Canadian vibe ...

Tommorow is Christmas Day festivities at the Ruis household. Should prove to be a laugh.

Blessings to you all! Have a Wonderful Christmas with family and friends!!!

Don't forget to make time for that really good movie you have been dieing to see, the fantastic book you have been wanting to read, a glass of wine with some dear friends and of course step out and bless someone's life over this season which perhaps is typically out of your comfort zone yet, expresses the beauty of your heart and more importantly the one of our Saviour and King!

Love to all my dear family who I am away from and my close friends you are missed!Your in my thoughts and prayers

sherix

Christmas

2005-12-20T16:30:00.000-08:00

In the deepest night
there rises the star of morning,
of birth,
the herald of a new day you are making,
a day of great joy dawning
in yet faint shafts
of light and love.

I hear whispers of peace in the stillness,
fresh breezes of promise
stirring,
winter sparrows
chirping of life,
a baby's cry
of need
and hope -
Christmas!

In the darkness I see the light
and find in it comfort,
confidence,
cause for celebration,
for the darkness cannot overcome it;
and I rejoice to nourish it
in myself,
in other people,
in the world
for the sake of him
in whom it was born
and shines forever,
even Jesus the Christ.

(Book: Guerilla's of Grace)

Phone Call

2005-12-19T16:53:00.000-08:00

Paul, Corey, Jamie ...

Thank you Thank you for calling last night! It meant so much to me that a few of you called me from "the party"! Man, I so wish that I could have been there ... I love you guys, think of you often and pray for you! You are so dear to my heart ...thank you for not forgetting and most importantly remembering the most important details and little fun things, nuances and feelings of my heart!

Love to you all!
sherix

Christmas Letter 2005

2005-12-17T19:37:00.000-08:00

HI My Friends ... Well, I just spent pretty much all day perfecting the art of completing a Christmas Letter. Man, it sure is a lot of work! Why is it so hard?? This definately is when my perfectionistic characteristics come into play.

Now, I have been trying to figure out if I can post it as an attachment but, obviously not. So, if you have not received an email with my Christmas Letter and would like to receive it -pop me out a note and I will email it to you right away! Of course pop me out a note with your email address!!!

Love to you all ...merry merry cheer and some tasty eggnog latte's!

PS - King Kong -oh my gosh, flippin amazing movie! Narnia on the other hand -fairly average, it will be interesting to see how many churches now start using that movie in every preach. mmm...scary! Tho' I do have to admit that I was crying when Aslan was killed!

A Random Thought Today

2005-12-13T13:37:00.000-08:00

What Have I Done Today That Is Worth Talking About Tomorrow?

'Tis The Season To Be Frenzied ... fa la la la la la la

2005-12-08T22:12:00.000-08:00

Oh wait, that isn't how the song goes ...is it ;)

Christmas is quickly approaching and it is a season which culture and media promotes with excitement and perhaps even a touch of frenzy. I mean think about all the money our north american "rich" culture is raking in at our expense!

So I ask, are you already finding yourself in a mode of a fast pace mall hunt for that "perfect gift", or perhaps that doesn't happen until the 24th - when it is just mayhem! Lights, Christmas Trees, Cards, Eggnog, decorations, tinsel, garland, ivy, holly ... mistletoe? It never ends and it is so easy to find ourselves caught in the swirl of the very thing it is not.

Our Christmas Season.

So many reflective thoughts roll around in my head, Years ago ... as a child I remember my father came home from work one day and proudly announced to us as a family that ... "This year we are going to discover the real meaning of Christmas".

screeching halt - fullstop here. Every child's nightmare conversation! WHAT -no presents????

You mean Santa will fly right by our house and NOT STOP?! Not even the token 'orange' in the stocking? I remember my brother, kevin and I looking at each other like this would be the end of all fun and frolic as we once knew it. What would we tell our friends at school, when the christmas loot list starts being read and here we are with a big FAT NOTTA "0" ZERO!

My Father proudly declared even stronger "NOW WAS THE TIME to DISCOVER the REAL MEANING of CHRISTMAS!"

If I remember correctly, this was the year that mom, had zealously gone to the local bakery and ordered a "Happy Birthday Jesus" Cake which she proudly marched in on Christmas Day and there we sat all around the table (uhum -forced) to sing a rousing chorus of HAPPY BIRTHDAY to JESUS! Which I then -very energetically- was able to practice the famous sheri mcconnell "eyeroll" and the common kick under the table to my brother.

Like what the heck - WHERE'S MY PRESENTS! WHERE'S MY PRESENTS?? PRESENTS?! WHERE??????? !!!

Perhaps, you can relate completely to my story above and then others of you perhaps bake that cake every year joyously, celebrating the birth of Christ in similar form. Either way, let, me just say loudly THANK YOU JESUS the children won over somewhat that year- or perhaps it was just a healthy compromise. My parents decided to go with just one gift for each of us that year. Making a specific point of highlighting the truth that Christmas is not about commercial marketing of the latest gadget and the plethera of toys/clothes that one "just feels" the urge to need right at this time of year.

As much as I really did not understand the point of those fateful Christmas events past, now as an adult I can say that I appreciate the intent and heart of my parents in wanting to model truth and meaning far beyond the miss of mass media blitz.

I look at Christmas now very differently, thanks to encounters like I speak about above and a Christmas Season I spent a few years ago in a far off beautiful land called, Nepal.

Of course, the excitement of watching a child open a gift with such fervency and joy ripping that paper off, I admit is very fun to watch.

Yet, the teacher in me even more wants to point children and adults alike to the Biblical response "it is more blessed to give than to receive".

"Giving" - Must it come in a small, medium or large box with glitzy paper? Or how about through a kind word, an outstretched hand of mercy and love to a broken, peaceless culture and society. How about taking our children,youth and self to the real reality and beauty of Christmas - to the cold streets of every city or town you find yourself living in. Looking into the faces of the lonely, the lost. These ones are everywhere around us! This season for many is just another day of brokenness and sadness, fighting for their next meal or place to stay warm out of the cold. The latest Macy's sale is definately not in the forefront of these ones minds.

I ask myself. What can I do to bring hope during this season. To reach outside of my warm, comfortable, clean home and to look outside of myself. Not to the Mall, Not to the Tree, Not to the Gift - But, truly to He who gives and gives and gives! This one whose name is JESUS.

Isn't the person of Jesus REALLY what Christmas is about?
How would He choose to celebrate His season?

Thomas Merton so eloquently penned "We are not at Peace with others because we are not at peace with ourselves, and we are not at peace with ourselves because we are not at peace with God."

I pray PEACE over you my friends in this very PEACELESS hour as you discover real love, true joy, contentment and simplicity in the important realities of life.

How will you choose to celebrate the season of Christmas?

This is soooo good ... You gotta love Thomas Merton

2005-12-06T23:25:00.000-08:00

Thanks Lisa Girl!

The real purpose of meditation - or at least that which recommends itself as most relevant for the modern man - is the exploration and discovery of new dimensions in freedom, illumination and love, in deepening our awareness of our life in Christ.

What is the relation of this to action? Simply this. He who attempts to act and do things for others or for the world without deepening his own self-understanding, freedom, integrity and capacity to love, will not have anything to give others. He will communicate to them nothing but the contagion of his own obsessions, his agressiveness, his ego-centered ambitions, his delusions about ends and means, his doctrinaire prejudices and ideas. (Thomas Merton "Comtemplation in a World of Action.")

This article REALLY struck me today ...

2005-12-06T10:41:00.000-08:00

RELEVANT Magazine :: relevantmagazine.com

My sister just caught her boyfriend soliciting a local prostitute online.

Now she gave me permission to write this, but this situation does raise the question: How far has common morality slipped? Is the Internet Age to blame? Has easy access to e-smut pushed us further and further toward the brink of depravity? Was the world always this bad, or is Original Sin merely as American as hot apple pie?

Do common ethics appear to be on the decline just as personal spirituality is exploding into everyday life? The 21st century looks to offer more potential for Christian evangelism than, perhaps, any period in the last 200 years. Today, even vocal anti-Christians acknowledge belief in God and respect Jesus, but such spiritual openness hasn’t translated to the kind of kingdom Jesus came to establish.

This is the central challenge posed to postmodern Christianity: How does one introduce a higher ethic, an absolute Truth, in the midst of exalted relativism?

We approach this question when we talk about “relevance” or “emergent Christianity,” but too often the relevant issues at hand are lost in theological rhetoric and pop-philosophy that has little to do with practical living. My views of hell and creation may be changing (and they certainly are thanks to postmodern literature), but if my love doesn’t grow, then my Christianity is just as stale and marginalized as it’s always been.
Conclusion: theology, per se, isn’t the whole solution.

So if intellectuals can’t save “selfish me” or my spurned sister or her philandering ex, where do we go from here? How does Christianity redeem a world where Christian virtues are trivial to the point of social incompatibility?

The Apostle Paul boiled it down to this: “And whatever other command there may be, are summed up in this one command: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself’” (Romans 13:9, TNIV). Jesus lived and breathed this kind of self- negating, rights-surrendering, community-altering agape. It got Him killed.

If we are to embrace a brand of Christianity that truly alters our lives and the world in which we inhabit, it will require more from us than throwing out our secular music and wearing kitschy T-shirts bearing memorable Jesus-ized slogans.

First, it’s important to rediscover the unsexy unselfishness inherent in biblical ideas of love. We have to remind the world (and ourselves) that love involves sacrifice. Somewhere along the way, the “otherness” that love demands gets lost. In a generation where self-gratification reaches new levels through erotic mass media and a dangerously casual dating culture, the idea of abstaining from indulgence sounds almost puritanical. Yet such an attitude is completely contrary to a 1 Corinthians 13 kind of love that is defined, not by feelings or emotions or sensuality, but by matters of will, of choice and of sacrifice.

It doesn’t sound very erotic, but it may be the only prescription for healthy, transcendent relationships.

Next, the believer must expose and defy the all-too-American attitude that blindly tells us, “More is better—even relationally.” This lie convinced my frat brothers back in college that quantity is better than quality—that sleeping with four women in a week is perfectly acceptable, that there is plenty of time to settle down and be domestic later on. Years later, this lie convinced a man that his wife may have been adequate when his salary was $40K a year, but now that he’s reached junior vice president, it’s time to think about image.

“More” has been defined as a certain shape of body and a certain social inclination, a plastic replica of happy living. After all, how could something so pedestrian as love survive the rigors of corporate appearance?

Finally, love must be removed—with a scalpel, if necessary—from the romantic entanglements lauded by pop culture’s generic TV-archetypes. Ironically, this aspect of false love may be the most difficult to rid ourselves of. Because it is seemingly benign (almost adorably innocent), it escapes the critical lens of truth. Who could deny the life-changing love that grew and blossomed between Justin and Britney? Brad and Angelina? Kevin Arnold and Winnie Cooper? Who would want to?

The truth nobody likes to admit (but everyone knows deep down) is that love can be quite unimpressive, even boring; my parents have watched British comedies every Saturday night for 15 years! Before that, they square-danced. God save us from such fates …

Or perhaps: God redeem us through such simplicity.

I live next door to a woman with schizophrenia. Her husband left her last month, tired of dealing with the illness. For the last four nights, she has danced to blaring country music in her driveway, silhouetted by the empty glow of her parked pickup’s headlights. She’s out there as I write this paragraph, lost in some blurred reality that few will take the time to care about. I wonder what facets of love are lacking in her life. I wonder which parts of “ever after” fell by the wayside as her husband walked away for the last time.

Love is a lot of work—gut-wrenching at times—which means that Christianity is inevitably hard, no matter what the televangelists say.

In cautious reflection, I guess there must be a rush in making email contact with a real-life prostitute—the adrenaline of “what if” must excite the baser instincts in a man. Perhaps my sister’s ex isn’t so vile. I suppose I can almost see how something so empty and meaningless could provide a tempting escape from the responsibilities of a real, deep, give-and-take relationship …

But prostituted love isn’t real. Neither is empty, self-help Christianity, which promises far more than any religion could deliver: the simple life, the good life, the American pie. Maybe real love—real religion—is the one that Jesus was talking about before He gave His life for people, some of whom will never even realize why.

Peter Walker is a Spiritual Formation student at George Fox Seminary, and works with youth and drama ministries at his local church. He is desperate for change.

J ... This is for you

2005-12-04T23:18:00.000-08:00

.:My prayer for you tonight:.

"The soul must long for God in order to be set aflame by God's love; But, if the soul cannot yet feel this longing, then it must long for the longing. To long for the longing is also from God." - Meister Eckhart

Even when Christ 'feels' invisible to you - know that He in you is visible! I saw Jesus in you tonight and choose to fight with a handful of others for you - every part of your life!

You are not alone. I believe in you!

Will you once again choose to even just "long for the longing?"

Captured

2005-12-02T18:27:00.000-08:00

Tony, a good friend of mine from Winnipeg posted this picture on his blog and I feel stirred by this photograph.

So many lost, lonely, empty and utterly exhausted women+men who fill the benches we pass by everyday in the parks, at the bus/train stops, in front of the shops.

My heart asks of myself ...Will I be a smile, a word of encouragement; a gesture of kindness, comfort, hope or perhaps even courage?

Interested to hear your feelings, emotions and thoughts as you look at this image...

New Friends ...

2005-12-01T23:47:00.000-08:00

I hung out with a really cool couple tonight ~Ahhhh....Refreshing! They have been in LA for just 2 years, moved here from Texas and are just very interesting people. We seem to have a lot of common interests... Youth, Travel, Missions, The Arts, etc.

This felt like a little personal oasis for me in the midst of a vast desert.
Thanks Jesus

In Prayer Tonight

2005-11-28T23:42:00.000-08:00

with David, Lee and Greg for the Basileia Community the Lord gave me a picture of a man standing on a ladder at a broken wall industriously rebuilding the wall. Then I heard the Lord say very clearly "A repairer of the wall" ... Lee then grabbed his Bible and read out of Isaiah 58 which totally fits and I believe is a heart cry of the Lord over our community in this season.

"If you do away with the yoke of oppression, with the pointing finger and malicious talk, and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday. The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail. Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins and will raise up the age-old foundations; you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls, Restorer of Streets with Dwellings. Isaiah 58: 9-12

Christmas ...

2005-11-26T17:36:00.000-08:00

As of last night the TREE IS UP! I decided if I was actually going to buy decorations that I need to make the most of them ...so, literally from the store to the floor did my tree go with enthusiasm and vigor I perfected the highly flammable plastic decor. Perhaps, one day a real tree will grace my humble abode.

Today Anita, Maria and I went right into the heart of Hollywood to hook up with a lady named Rachelle.

Rachelle is a homeless lady who we encountered last Sunday right after the GIG who had fallen into the middle of the street. She and a friend of hers, Angelina came over for Thanksgiving Dinner the other night and as I was sitting right across from them had quite an interesting conversation. The skills of manipulation for the sake of survival these ladies have developed is quite fascinating and sad all at the same time.

Speaking of sad -wow- Hollywood ...so many mentally unstable, broken, lost and lonely individuals. Definately not what you see on the movie screen.

So, today Anita, Maria and I sat in some pizza joint right on Hollywood Blvd. listening to Rachelle. It is all apart of the journey into relationship. I love it cause it is so much more than just a cup of coffee or a free meal. It is really sitting and listening to the heart of a woman who has been living in LA for 17 years. A woman who is struggling to live, looking for hope, love and life.

Please pray for Rachelle and Angelina that we will have the continued honor of encountering life with these ladies.

Ok - gotta jet - Bailey is jumping all over me obviously looking for some entertainment.

Peace Out

Thanks Katie ...

2005-11-25T12:08:00.000-08:00

Open Me
Written by Shawn McDonald

Would You open up eyes, so I can see
Would You open up my ears, so I can hear
Would You open up my mind, so I can know
Would You open up my heart, so could love You more
I want to serve You, my God
I want to give everything
I want to serve You, my King, yeah
I want to serve You, my Lord
I want to give You everything, yeah
Here I am with my arms open wide
Asking for You to come up, up inside
Won't You make me new, won't You make me true
Jesus, won't You make me like You, oh
Will You touch my eyes so I can see
Will You touch my ears so I can hear
Will You touch my mind so I can know
Will You touch my heart so I can love You more
Won't You open me
Won't You open me, open me
Won't You open me, open me
Won't You open me, open me
Won't You open me, open me

American Thanksgiving

2005-11-24T21:55:00.000-08:00

Today is American Thanksgiving. WOW. Do they celebrate it down here ... as big as Christmas, for some -they tell me- even bigger. There was a whole gang of Basileia posse over at the Ruis' tonight for a feast of a lifetime. Seriously... good thing I just joined the YMCA up the street.

I have a whole bunch of stuff in my heart as of late and have no clue where to begin. Still processing. Yes, for those of you who don't know me well, I am a processor and feel things very deeply (this is my sensory/tactile side) so-as much as most of you know me as the extrovert self that I usually am. There are many days that I just need to be able to walk some things through from my heart with the Lord.
Tonight is one of those nights.

I don't really have anyone to do that with in the flesh - who really just 'get me', the way I think, the way I feel, without having to explain or at times over explain. Many days I just feel very alone yet, I also believe it is a place that the Lord has created in me and for Him, that only He and I can go to. Much of it -will never hit this site, as much as I would love for it, cathartic and all. That to me is still the scary part of this whole blog concept. The unsafe part.

Sometimes I wish that i didn't "feel" as much as I do. I have always been that way since childhood. The slightest word to the loudest statement. A look to an unresponsive nudge. I wonder why do I need to "see" and "feel" all these things...
Something feels unsafe right now.

Yesterday, I wrote in my journal that "I feel surrounded by partial/ conditional embraces, which are so contrary to the Father who holds His arms wide open as far as the east is from the west. To embrace us as His son, His daughter, with an unconditional embrace."

'Say the right thing', 'Have the right look', 'Offer the right gift.' 'Just BE the right person.'

"A partial embrace appears like the real thing until you are wrapped in it. Yet quickly, feel the coldness, the empty promises with no commitment contaminating the voice of the one who is there as the giver and receiver."

My heart is longing to find myself constant in the unconditional embrace.

Father, my heart longing is to be one who embraces like You. Willing to go to the dark places, hear the pain, walk out life together. Free of all the conditional stipulations subtly or blatantly we put on one another. Truly desiring to understand the meta narrative of the different ones whose face I look into each day. Growing in love, understanding, mercy, patience, kindness. Slow to speak and quick to really listen.

:A few quotes that have captured my attention as of late:

"Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere"
(Martin Luther King Jr. a letter from a Birmingham Jail, April 16, 1963)

"Community is an alibie for a failure of individual love"-Leonard Cohen

"Comprehension is not a precursor to obedience"-Film 'The Matrix'

"True Freedom is whom or what you choose to be enslaved to"

"Those who say it can't be done shouldn't interrupt those who are doing it"

"We judge ourselves by our intentions and yet we judge others by their actions"

"I'd like to live like a poor man with lots of money"
-Pablo Picasso

"A little bit of evil for the greater good is still evil"
-Sheri McConnell

Thought for Today

2005-11-22T18:33:00.000-08:00

After getting up at 6:30 am this morning for no special reason other than to let Bailey do his morning pee on the mini palm tree on my patio (thought to self - I should water that tree at some point) and then of course another reason I am up so stinkin' early cause I had gone to bed at 8:30pm the night before. ok -I was exhausted from my trip. I think I am back to normal ...as normal as I get anyway;)

I decided to throw in the movie "Kingdom of Heaven" with Orlando Bloom. ahhh...a lil' early morning pleasure - good coffee, a bowl of cereal, sitting in my pj's in my chocolate chenille throw watching a movie with no rush to the morning (kinda feels like a christmas holiday treat)

...anyway...

A thought for today emerged in me as I watched this movie and here it is:
"A little bit of evil for the greater good - is still evil"

Fascinating how human nature enjoys justifying the small compromises for the sake of the perceived better, best or greatest.

:My prayer today:
Lord, please purge and refine the smallest justifications in my heart which will so easily contaminate the beautiful work of Your Heart in my life.

Quiz

2005-11-20T19:12:00.000-08:00

Thanks Raeh for the "middle earth quiz". Here are my results

Numenorean

To which race of Middle Earth do you belong?
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If you want to also take this test click on: "To which race of Middle Earth do you belong?" above

Side note: mmm ... feels eerily prophetic in a bizarre personality way ...

sunday -oh what a day!

2005-11-20T01:39:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BARB!!! Lots of Love from me to you across the miles xoxoxoxox

today was a good day. it didn't start off that way but, turned around. Here comes a story ...

Last night around 1am as I sleepingly unpacked my suitcase from what was a really long day. I just arrived back home from a two and ahalf week trip to Canada.

I was warmly greeted by my oh so comfy bed - clean fresh smelling sheets. (By the way this truly is one of my favorite earthly smells!) and my lil' baby Bailey cuddled up around my neck/head. ok -don't ask - that is the usual 'sleep position' he likes to have with me. That will most definately have to change when i get married. Anyway, on to the story ... About half way through the middle of the night. right during REM (im sure) in the middle of a good dream anyway, I heard this taptaptap and variations thereabout right above my head on my bedroom window. My bed is right below a window (which I am on ground floor)it was loud enough to wake me up very slowly as the little white puff ball curled up into me started quietly growling. Again... taptaptap... the sound emerged even louder this time sounding alot more urgent and Bailey's growl intensified as I could hear the window trying to be unlodged from it's closed position. I started panicking in a semi (not even) concious state. I must explain. I am not a morning person or do very well when woken up from a dead sleep. I wasnt thinking clearly at all. I jumped up out of my bed thinking "someone is trying to break in" I have to keep the window closed - I cannot let them in. I was freaking! finally, I whipped the blinds up and saw this mass of a person trying to scale the rocks below my window endeavoring to climb through the window. Of all things, I actually scared them when I threw open the blinds and started screaming at the top of my lungs "GET OUT OF HERE" "GET OUT OF HERE" over and over again. I honestly, don't know how many times I yelled it. Remember I was in a daze. When this person looked up at me - I noticed it was a girl who started saying back to me frantically, "I'm sorry mam, I'm sorry miss...i'm sorry." I thought that someone else lived here. I didn't take that for any sort of apology but, just kept yelling "GET OUT OF HERE!" I can justify my psychoticness by the fact that I was so startled and freakin' scared! This person quickly removed herself from the face of my wall and ran off. I ended up trying to sleep after that and needless to say was fairly disconbobulated. Which then at 5am Bailey decided it was time to get up for a morning pee. I definately was not going to go over to our park, but again stumbled out of bed to let him pee on the one teeny weeny palm tree that I have on my patio. I could care less at that point. and then he kept waking up every hour on the hour until 8am I finally tried to pull it together to head down to Hollywood for our monthly GIG event.

THERE'S A STORY FOR YA' EH!

I was looking forward to seeing a few people this morning and yet, a huge part of me was just wanting to sleep in but,knew that would be virtually impossible so, I pushed through and said to myself let's make this the best. I walked in and was automatically greeted by warm smiles, hugs and a few familiar faces. It actually felt really cool. I felt a little thrown coming back from my fun adventures in Canada to not really knowing what I am coming to here. and yet, today it felt really good. I had a few convo's with some really cool people and actually collected quite a few phone numbers who I am going to pursue to just hang and get to know each other. Jason and Jennifer live in long beach and are so cool. Jason is honestly an amazing worshipper and his wife jennifer is so beautiful! I really feel a connect with her and look forward to a new friendship. Plus, I met this really cool young couple who live right in Hollywood and have moved here from Texas just a couple years ago following the voice of God. Another Jesus Connect I feel is emerging. Thank you Lord. I have really been praying about this and you are giving me hope. Thank you!

I hooked up with another few friends to set up some coffee dates and then in the middle of worship (which was absolutely amazing!) All my Canadian friends -you really need to come to just be able to be apart of this worship stuff going on! Amazing! And I could hear the voice of the Lord so clear directing me to pray for people -stealth like. No recognition, not up at the front, just weaving through the crowd as He directed. I really could see the Lord so clear on people and had an opportunity to see freedom over a beautiful girl who was so broken. The Lord gave me a picture for her about her being a bird with beautiful color who had her wings bandaged up and could not fly because she was wounded. He healed her heart this morning as we prayed and in an act of beautiful obedience she then drew a picture of a precious bird flying free in the air with all her color and beauty to display!
It just so encouraged my heart!

My heart is filled with hope in today as I really saw you Lord answer some cries and concerns of my heart as I have launched out into the total unknown, not knowing how this all is going to unfold. In light of american thanksgiving -which is this week and honestly, so bizarre - almost bigger than christmas! David was speaking about "contentment" today and I just felt challenged today to remind myself again that I bring myself back to that place of contentment in HIM. As I keep placing myself there - He will direct my path and fulfill the longings of my heart.

I choose to trust you Lord, my saviour, my master.
Tommorow I might head down to the beach (it has been HOT here- like 27 celcius!) I need a day off and with a freshly filled tank of gas should go and have a new adventure. Even alone I will find intimacy - with HIM.

tired

2005-11-18T17:30:00.000-08:00

I am coming to a close of my 17 days in Canada. Tommorow I head back to the land of population ...that's right Los Angeles. It still feels somewhat surreal that I actually live there and I must say I so miss Bailey! I can hardly wait to see him tommorow and my mom and dad!!!

This has been a good trip. Loads of people time -it has been awesome! Looking forward to my quiet little so cal apartment in the foothills of LA, walks in the little park with bailey and new adventures to unfold. I already miss all you very dear people to my heart, who I have hung with for the last couple weeks. It makes me sad to wonder when the next time will be. There were many of you I wish that I could have seen on this trip - Kevin Deane, Mark Sears, Laurel and many others.

Odd how when all of a sudden we are taken completely out of every comfortable place we realize how settled we really were and the relationships that you are blessed with. I am staying with My brother and family tonight before I head off. They are so amazing and my nephews ... Josh, Matt and Nathan you are so beautiful! Barb it was cool to be able to just hang this afternoon. There is something so safe about being "known" -this city -this country is full of kindred ones who 'I am' with. The land I am re-entrying to really isn't that yet. This is the scary part. Looks like I have a lot to walk through and begin all over again. Once again. Another new beginning is in front of me.

Im tired.
goodnight

Back Home in Cow Town ...

2005-11-14T12:18:00.000-08:00

HEY Friends

well...i am home in calgary. arrived back here yesterday from regina.

had an absolutely amazing time with all the youth at the retreat, old friends, new friends ... the Lord moved powerfully really challenging students and adults alike to stop living our spiritual lives through our emotions. To set our affections on the things of the Lord and to commit one to another to be people who desperately call out Jesus Life over ourselves and one another. Particularly in a culture and time that is so independant and self absorbed - we need Jesus more than ever and we need community!

I really believe that roots went deep and that was my personal prayer for the weekend and all the ministry that I am putting my hands to. so needless to say in the midst of exhaustion i feel really good. my heart feels well. his voice feels very sharp to me right now. that might not make sense to many of you, but i feel like i am hearing. thank you jesus. my dependance really is in you. even in the moments of speaking truth i felt those words hitting very close to home just for me. and timely as i have launched out to the unknown.

so, here i am in calgary for a few days with epic, lifeforce, family. i pray that these days would be full of life and even in the midst of craziness and wanting to cram in as much 'people time' as possible -there would be divine moments of conversation and the ministry of your Spirit Lord.

A quick update ... travelling gypsy

2005-11-07T20:53:00.000-08:00

Hello all ... this will be short and sweet ... here's hoping

I am currently sitting in good ole' Eston, SK. my old haunt, familiar smells, warm smiley faces and of course amazing pumpkin icecream! ok, I need to bring this back to the US of A for american thanksgiving. mmm ... well, I started the blog and then was interrupted by a very interesting late night conversation so, now here I am in Regina a few days later. Currently speaking at the Regina youth retreat. Loads of good friends -new and old - makes me miss this scene. What does that Lord have up His sleeve?

Since I left LA on Nov. 3rd I have been to Winnipeg for the 10th anniversary of the church. It was very cool to see many friends and had some great convo's with Rik/Zara, Brett/Becky, Alexandra and Joyska. Wow - I miss my friends!!!

Then I was off to Eston. Once again my old Bible College Haunts. It was interesting cause the Lord told me this past summer that I was to come to the scholl this fall and really had no clue why. It was such a fantastic few days and I was asked to speak to all the girls at the college on (drum roll please) "sexual purity". Yes, the favorite topic of sorts ... It went really well and had an opportunity to pray with quite a few girls. Since Wednesday Night I have been here in Regina and am just getting ready to head over to the church to preach it up. An amazing group of young people here - I love it!!!!

I appreciate all your prayers ... With the finishing up of the wknd. preaching at main service on sunday morning, epic on sunday night and then Lifeforce teaching all next week. It will be a very busy week!

To all of you who take the time to read this blog - please know from my heart ... I really love you. You are dear friends! I miss you and wish that we had more time to just BE with one another!

sherix
(PS. Bailey I miss you and love you! Be good;)

tick tick tickin' away ...

2005-11-02T17:00:00.000-08:00

Tommorow I leave for the great white north. ok canada. and perhaps it is not so white -here's hopin' -but, it sure is great! i miss Canada! i miss all the ease of getting to things, finding things, not sitting in traffic, the clean air and ground ... let's see what else ... most importantly all those of you whom i love and miss. i miss you! So, here I come... i leave tommorow morning (thursday) and am going to winnipeg first off to see my grandma and all the wcv crew and then off to Eston -my old bibleschool and then Regina to preach up a storm at the youth retreat. Then of course Calgary to see my brother, family and hang with all the groovy epic posse and lifeforcer's. Last and certainly not least conclude my trip flying through Vancouver to see my parents!

This has been a good month! it hasn't been ez but, it has been good. I have a really nice place that I look forward to coming home to each day. A total blessing from the Lord! I am slowly meeting people and making friends. I look forward to that when I come back as a priority! Still trying to walk out how this all fits for me being here personally and in this emerging community but, that's ok -it is to be expected. i have a feeling that though this trip back is exciting it will also be very hard. The Lord has a few things up his sleeve - I am sure;)

My housewarming partee went really well! There were about 15 people here or so and even good ole' Kevin Friesen was here for the hang. My first Canadian visitor! Today I was out and about on my own cruisin around down Melrose ... that was fun -i got my first Hollywood haircut by Eric who is a part of basileia. Though, I was extremely freaked out ... it all went really well and eric is amazing!! I LOVE my hair!!!!! Eric if you ever read this ...you seriously rock! katie you would love eric's style ... so when you come and visit me ...hinthint ... save up it will cost you 80 smackers and that is us dolla-but, it is worth it-all the way!

Egg Nog Latte's are out! OFFICIAL ANNOUNCEMENT ... HEAR YE ... HEAR YE ... run out for some yuletide cheer

Prayer stuff ... Please pray for my next 2 weeks ... as I will be speaking, teaching, counseling, etc... I am looking forward to what Jesus is going to do. Please pray for provision in every way! Resource, soul, spirit, etc... that ALL the Lord desires to do in me and through me to others would happen!

Please pray for crossing the border. Even tho' I have my visa, at times these things can be a little tricky ... once again I have to do the border crossing. ick. so intimidating!

Well, my friends i am off for lime margaritas and mexican food before i finish packing!

I AM NOW OFFICIALLY SET UP in my house!!!!

2005-10-25T23:01:00.000-07:00

After a gazillion trips to IKEA, Target and back. This is when my perfectionism soars to an all round high! Way too many 3am mornings as I unpack, organize, move furniture, etc... Last night was my last one for awhile. My office is now organized! Yahhooo ... I feel like I can now face my new life down here head on! Ok - am I anal or what? I just need to have a sense of organization in my very chaotic - quickly changing life. I realize this is how I find sanity and safety way faster. I think that's what happens when you move alot and are in different environments all the time. the little that you have -I like to at least have it semi settled.

I put my last coat of stain on my beautiful $20 dining table from goodwill! it's either maple or oak (I cannot remember) Seriously, it is beautiful and I learned something new in the process. Anita you are amazing! Now, I just have to coat it with a sealant and the entertaining begins!

ROUNDTABLES :There is something about round tables. They are my favorite. note to self -from now on - roundtables in my home at all times. Something that draws you closer to one another face to face. This table can fit comfortably 8 people around it. So, cool! I only have 4 chairs tho' that is all I could afford. It really helps creates family and conversation. I love that!

oh...i love it...the current weather that is! We are having authentic vancouver weather for the past couple days. meaning ... rain, fog, mist, cool air. Sounds like either the setting for a romance novel or a suspense/horror. I prefer the romance. Everyone tells me that this is early for california - they usually get this "winter weather" around christmas for what a couple weeks. Nice long seasons they have here (sarcasm intended;) They usually only have HOT HOTTER and HOTTEST no wonder if you are one who is climatized down here this is known as cold, winter.

Hahaha ... come to winnipeg honey! The last couple days I was walking around the park with a tshirt no jacket and people here are all bundled up. it is quite funny to watch and most people are probably laughing at me on this one. Let's see as the adjustments settle and the elusive climatizing happens whether or not I too will become thin skinned.

Saying all that - I love these types of days cause it makes me want to snuggle up in front of a fireplace. well, no fireplace here. so sad. But, drink a nice steamy cup of eggnog latte' I now can do-that's right- it is in the stores baby! ANNOUNCEMENT - I saw it yesterday!!! Eggnog that is;) When it will hit starbucks -who knows....katie?? tanya?? [Commercial break]

Anyway, snuggle up, read a good book ...speaking of -check out the corresponding list on the right margin of this page. These are just a few personal favorite books. There are always many more to be added, perhaps in a couple months I will change the list and bring in some new books. tonight Tams and I went to the Black Cow in Montrose. Not to far from where we live. Ok -this is a cute little restaurant. Another hot spot for my visitors to come:)

Upcoming Highlights:

*A morning walk in the park, with bailey in the misty dew
*Pulse Meeting in Pasadena tommorow (aka. prayer)
*Art supply shopping for basileia with tams
*Friday - Laguna Beach
*Kevin Friesen is coming to visit me! Yeah, my first "official visitor" in my home. Here comes the party!
*Saturday Night Halloween Party at the Ruis'!
mmmm...still trying to figure out a costume!
*Sunday - the 'GIG'!
*Sunday Night - my open house partee!!!

Well time to sign off. I feel this has been one massive ramble but, I have enjoyed it -I don't know about you...

peaceout

PS ...

2005-10-23T21:31:00.000-07:00

The content for my favorite books tab is coming soon ... I promise:)

sheri

...oh what a deal!

2005-10-23T11:38:00.000-07:00

Yes - that's right I found a couch for $80. Actually, Anita Ruis found a couch for me ... AND it is a LEATHER one at that!! What a steal:) I mean it is not in perfect shape but, what a few cushions and a throw can cover makes it all worthwhile and more! Yahoo ...

This rates up there with the fridge! Plus, I bought something that I have wanted for a long time!!! A BEAN BAG Chair. I remember my aunt and uncle had a couple for years and I absolutely loved them. Always wanted one in my living room. And they still sell them down here! So, I picked one up:) Great for watching football games! Now, I just have to start working on that one. Watching football that is ;)

Yesterday morning, I had resigned myself to hermiting out for the day (see past blog post) and then a friend here called me up and invited me out with her and her husband to the Los Angeles Farmers Market. Oh my gosh. I swear this beats all farmers markets I have been to! World famous -over a 100 years old. We went for crepes' and delicious coffee. One could stay there all day and just eat a varitey of various ethnic foods that are so yummy. I went to the New Orleans Kiosk and ended up having the best coffee I have ever drunk!!! Plus, there is a place connected to the Market that is called "The Grove" and it looks so cool a tram runs up and down the street that are filled with really cool shops, restaurants and the like. I definately have to go back there soon and explore further!

Seriously, for all those of you coming to visit me - we will go there! Very fun! I could have just stayed all day there to people watch. I love people watching and I have to say this beats anywhere else I have been.

Well, speaking of delicious coffee... Time to go get some with breakfast!

Happy Sunday:)

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2005-10-22T19:37:00.000-07:00

Well, I have been a bad "poster" ..."blogger" lately. I have no excuse really. It's not that I have been incredibly busy or anything. My home is pretty much "together" now. Just waiting for my desk to be setup on monday. Looking forward to it -so, that I can then setup my office and pull things together for my very soon -upcoming trip back up to Canada!! Yeah ...can hardly wait:) Really looking forward to seeing family and friends!

It has been good so far. Though some days it feels like the adjustments are somewhat harder than other days. I realize that starting over relationally really is difficult and takes a lot of work. I have had a couple moments in the last week where I said to myself "I really don't like this" nor do "I feel like I am ready for this". That is when I have to force myself to just hunker down and step out relationally with people.

Funny how, people's perceptions of oneself can be quite the contrary to the sentiment, mood and reality. Like for example most people perceive me as the extrovert I usually am. Not afraid to conquer new horizons and meet new people. Yet lately, I have been feeling more like a hermit, wanting to be alone. Bizarre, cause I really don't want that. I am looking for significant connections not in a "networking" sort of way but, friends. People to hang with of like heart and interests and at a similar emotional maturity. There just is way more life to give to others when these relational parts are working in a healthy way.

Anyway, speaking of "health" - I checked out the YMCA today -they have a ton of programs there that look interesting. I need to do something like this. Plus, I went and signed up for a library card today. There is a park and a library right across the street from me. This is the park I walk Bailey in every day and this also is the park that I met 2 homeless people in late last night and had a really great conversation. I suspect that there will be more of these conversations to come. That was cool actually - cause it felt like I was walking it out here in my community.

I caught the end of a movie tonight. I don't even know what it was called -some made for TV movie. But, there was a statement made at the end of the movie made from a husband to a wife speaking to why marriages fall to boredom and dissapointment once familairity creeps in. But, it was a statement that caught me and it was this "Practicalities get in the way of abandon". I thought -wow-so, true. In every element of life how the practicalities of life can easily suck the life out of abandon. What are those necessary, practical things in your life that are getting in the way of abandon to those closest to you ...to the Lord ... to your passions ... What are they?

Lady of Shalot

2005-10-16T00:41:00.000-07:00

This is the painting across your screen to the right. My favorite painting of all time from the Renaissance era. Reminds me of my 'soul self' - that which is in a place of longing and desperation for the one her heart longs for ...and loves!

This is my constant, ever increasing, heaven directed cry

What and Whom is the reflection of your soul self?