So so Difficult ...

Thank you all for your prayers ... the young girl whom Anita and I started the detox process with the beginning of this past week has slipped once again over the last 48 hours. So sad. The family wedding she was supposed to go to -she didn't end up going and her family completely freaked out -needless to say many verbal exchanges back and forth, accusations and definitely no understanding. The sad thing is that they are really in the dark as to this girls pain and secrecy. The life of a victim -living in private pain that only she and a handful know, particularly when the abuse has been coming from the inside, a place where all children should be safe.

It never ceases to amaze me that whether all the information is known or not how selfish we are as human beings and cannot respect or even try to understand that perhaps not everything can happen the way that we see it happening or deem it best.

If only there could have been a little grace in the midst of the conversation, a tiny bit of understanding. That yes, it is a disappointment she decided to not be at the wedding but, perhaps the world is so much bigger than just our piece, desires and or wants. Perhaps, we could let go of our own things to just believe that maybe there is something at work in the bigger scheme. That even tho' you cannot always get your way and it doesn't always logically make sense -that is ok. Cause perhaps - it is not even supposed to be about you! So many things in life are not just about logic and reason. Remember your reason and logic can be totally different from someone else's perspective.

Anyway, enough of that rant. I understand the family's view and yet I so understand this young girls perspective. It actually is an issue of justice now which we are praying and trying to decide at what point do we as her pastors need to step in and bring clarity to the bigger picture. So, these hurtful accusations and words will stop. We are so damaging with our talk about one another. It scares me.

This girl has now been once again devastated by accusations, assumptions, statements of "love wasted on her" all her life. Which has now led her to the last 2 days back into the lifestyle she was so desperately trying to leave behind. Why are we so quick to judge, criticize!

Oh God, please I don't want to be that way! I really want to learn to listen better - selflessly. Not just with my ears but, with my heart. A heart longing to understand the deeper workings of the person who has my attention and also Your Spirit Lord who is at work consistently and constant.

She is not lost. No matter how many times one goes down -there is always a way up! Please Pray that the Lord would be so near to her that she would run and stay in His safe arms. Pray for us -wisdom...wisdom.